Thoughts Tonight from G-Ma
I had a wonderful day watching my 91 year old Mother have a good day. I have been taking her a Christmas gift each day I go, that has been sent by relatives, humm... well my sister and my step-sister...so far seems to be all that care anymore.
The home she lives in is very good about entertaining the residents that make it possible for the corporation and caregivers to make a living, you must realize it is a corporation after all...
Today they had some women and there children , in Santa type clothes singing Christmas songs, dancing around with full skirts that flew up and out as they twirled themselves around. These too are special caring people...
Needless to say the elders all had big smiles. Though memories brought back last for a few moments, they are treasures to each of them. I am sure each of us has a memory we just will never let go of, one that brings a heart to a full beat , one that makes you smile, sigh in the wonder of the way you felt at that very moment. I do !
Actually only lately in my journey with my dementing Mother have I learned some of the true meanings life offers to us. Our minds are a very complex part of our being, and how it is effected during our lifetime is what makes us a genuine Older person. I see so much kindness and caring in the elderly, maybe because they are aware of the fact time is running out, they will soon be a memory , hopefully, to someone. I have the same feelings sometimes.
The children are so busy with their complicated life's that I don't see them so much anymore. Could be they are frightened of the end, of the true fact time moves on and waits for no one, as we all get older...we know two things for sure..we will pay taxes and we will die.
There is no guarantee that comes with being born, well maybe one...God loves us and has a plan if we just listen. Sometimes we don't hear till we are older and have been through the troubles of life, the things that make each of us unique, build our character, learning to LOVE with no questions asked, to trust one another and also realize that being old is a pleasure we have just once in our time here.
Well I just know that I am well aware of my age, and that I am so lucky to be in the shape I am in. Oh it isn't the perfect , slim body, wrinkle free skin, un-dye'd hair and stubborn ways set by being alone, no it is knowing I have lived a great life, experienced many wonderful things, but wanting more.
Funny how we wait so long to become what we always thought we were. My Mother brings out the best and the worst in me, which I am glad to be able to experience, to know I matter as she does to me...
Always follow your heart and be true to yourself, because you cannot love someone else unless first you love yourself.
Thanks for listening to me think out loud...:O) Hugs G-Ma