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Transcendence: A Poem for Myself

Updated on July 9, 2012
This was how I viewed life before HER.  I wrote this poem during the lowest point of my life...but at this very moment of publishing, I can already claim that I am indeed one of God's beautiful creation because He has given me a wonderful gift...
This was how I viewed life before HER. I wrote this poem during the lowest point of my life...but at this very moment of publishing, I can already claim that I am indeed one of God's beautiful creation because He has given me a wonderful gift...


This is me a WANDERER, struggling in the most FRAGILE reality of the one inside me.

I am continuously moving around, yet AFRAID to break and shatter.

I live a life of pain, always painting the OUTSIDE with the colorful irony of the INSIDE.

I am sketching my heartaches with a colorful smile,

pretending to be OBLIVIOUS of the things i wish to change but CANNOT.

SCARRED from the very beginning, I remained the ANTONYM of a beautiful creation.

Cynical towards that "HAPPINESS" others talked about,

I had been the most cruel critique towards the spirit that HIDES within me.

I am the enemy of my "SELF".

The nemesis of the TRUTH of my being a daughter of GOD.

Each day I find it hard to ARTICULATE what I am afraid of,

taking each stride with utmost care.

I'm NOT looking back, I'm NOT looking anywhere.

I harshly direct myself each day to spend every energy to inspire others around me...

so that THEY may have the REASON to live,

and go on which I NEVER had and still DON'T HAVE.

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    • go-barbara-go profile imageAUTHOR

      go-barbara-go 

      6 years ago

      Hi teaches12345,

      I'm glad you took time to check some of my works. I am deeply honored. Yes, thankfully God has redeemed me from that feeling.

      Looking forward to reading more hubs from you in HP.

      Thanks.

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      Dianna Mendez 

      6 years ago

      Very deep and reflects how one feels when life seems to bleak. I am glad that you have discovered how very important you are as a child of God.

    • go-barbara-go profile imageAUTHOR

      go-barbara-go 

      6 years ago

      @Katyzz - Thank you for dropping by. I have learned a lot during those painful moments. Now that God has given me a daughter, I have already gained back that self-worth. Thanks for your words of wisdom.

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      katyzzz 

      6 years ago from Sydney, Australia

      Just learn to love yourself and then you will be able to move forward, we are all God's children and if we are worthy of his love we are certainly worthy of our own

    • go-barbara-go profile imageAUTHOR

      go-barbara-go 

      6 years ago

      Thanks Jan. You inspire me a lot.

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      Janhorner 

      6 years ago

      I agree Barbara, that we are all struggling with something! Loved your poem hits the nail on the head and you have chosen such meaningful words. Loved it!

      Jan

    • go-barbara-go profile imageAUTHOR

      go-barbara-go 

      6 years ago

      Thanks Sarah. I think everyone in this world is on that "struggling" reality.

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      Sarah Crandall Herbert 

      6 years ago from Grass Valley, California

      I can relate to what you are feeling. Thank you so much for sharing.

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