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Valentines Day Alone

Updated on February 22, 2011

On a night like this, I find myself wishing you were here.

Who you may be, I have no idea.

I just want your warm body on mine, my dear.


Where we met, doesn‘t concern me…honestly…

I’m just longing for something I can’t seem to find…

That which has always left me behind.


I don’t mind if I don’t know your name.

I need someone to hold just the same.

I’d tell you my desires, I would share my story

If only you would cherish what my words are implying.


Unfortunately, this is what I brought upon myself

But tonight I wish I could pull my heart off this shelf.


My heart has grown cold, as the years have passed.

My trust and my hope have vanished at last.

Yet tonight, I sit here and remember the past.


A spark flickers to life and a heartbeat is found.

I fall to the ground, missing the sound

Of a breath in my ear, a voice I can hear, a love I can feel.


This isn’t the way it was meant to be

Not for you

Not for me

Find me, you’ll see

Let tonight be…

Ours…

My darling, please



© copyright Ben D.A 2011


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    • EclecticHoosier profile image

      Daniel Petreikis 

      4 years ago from Chicago, IL

      Awesome! and Congrats on the quality (and amount!) of comments and responses!

    • BenWritings profile imageAUTHOR

      BenWritings 

      7 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee

      Thanks mucho, Zulma :]

      I agree completely...and yes we all need to be able to open up eventually.

      I appreciate your comment and read.

    • ZulmaDear profile image

      ZulmaDear 

      7 years ago from TheCrosses, LasCruces

      Beautiful.. i believe we all have those moments.

      I'm not the easiest girl to get close to, but that's because i protect myself; and at time i feel that i create walls. Its no fun when you're the only one behind those walls, it makes it difficult to let someone else in. I share things by writing.. and i feel as if that's the way that i let my guard down. Performing Slam poetry is the way i bear it all!

      As of late i've been showing my layers and letting myself be vulnerable to others who want more than a friendship. [although friendship is the base to any future relationship]

      I really enjoyed this hub. you sir are a great writer :)

    • Patricia Costanzo profile image

      Patricia Costanzo 

      7 years ago from Behind the Redwood Curtain

      I see that :)

    • BenWritings profile imageAUTHOR

      BenWritings 

      7 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee

      There are many ways of rhyming, and many ways of making something flow with beauty

      and creating perfect rhymes is not what i do, or ever will i dont believe

      thank you patricia :]

    • Patricia Costanzo profile image

      Patricia Costanzo 

      7 years ago from Behind the Redwood Curtain

      Beautifully Sad. I especially liked this:

      "I don’t mind if I don’t know your name.

      I need someone to hold just the same.

      I’d tell you my desires, I would share my story

      If only you would cherish what my words are implying."

      I agree with Nellienna, often rhymes are just distracting.

    • thisismylife9123 profile image

      Cheyenne Barroga 

      7 years ago from Salt lake city, UT

      Ah, a kindred soul. you aren't the only one who spent Valentine's day alone. it's hard, yes, but you are an amazing writer and a good person. you'll find someone who can hold your world together. you have my admiration, anyway! haha! ^w^/

    • BenWritings profile imageAUTHOR

      BenWritings 

      7 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee

      Nellie thank you VERY much for that :]

      I really have enjoyed the comments/feedback that I have gotten so far

      It really makes me feel great. :]

    • Nellieanna profile image

      Nellieanna Hay 

      7 years ago from TEXAS

      Ben, there are several things afloat here. Your natural talent is awesome. Reading more other writers is in no way to alter yours! And never mstrust your own instincts about it. I must admit I don't just love reading poetry in general and I really dislike reading trite verse and stuff that says very little but rhymes. I wrote for years without even considering myself as a poet. I wrote to express myself and to journal my experiences, especially at a time when I had virtually no other outlet.

      But it's a fact that in writing, it expands one's horizons to read GOOD work in the literary area in which you're writing. If you want to write fiction, read good fiction writers and notice how they develop a story. Stuff like that. Reading good poetry, especially of a kind similar to one's own can be an added element to your own inspiration.

      Rod McKuen hit the scene when it was almost unthinkable that anyone would actually buy and read a new poet's work. But it was so full of feelings, feelings shared by others, and was presented so beautifully with passion and authenticity, he became a best seller. it was phenomenal. Now he is older and still very productive. He also wrote some great music (some was used in high-octane movies), acted in some, performed in rodeos and went through his own ups and downs. There is an unmistakeable "something" to all his work, a passion, a simplicity that brings a reader to think - "Yeah! I know how that feels!" Some of that is what I noticed in your poetry.

      It IS amazing the response you've gotten! I think I had a lot of help and it was still quite awhile before I'd made much of a showing on here. You can attribute your good start to your abundant talent.

    • sligobay profile image

      sligobay 

      7 years ago from east of the equator

      Good Lad. Listen to those internal voices.

    • BenWritings profile imageAUTHOR

      BenWritings 

      7 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee

      I have been telling myself to read for a while...

      I'll definitely be doing more of it now.

      Thanks for the encouragement

      And also, I am amazed at the response I have received in 3 days, its awesome :]

    • sligobay profile image

      sligobay 

      7 years ago from east of the equator

      You have a terrific cast of poets offering plaudits. You have integrated into this poetic community in just three days. There is no shortage of talent in this column. Start reading this Rod McKuen guy and then commit as much of your time to reading as writing poetry. You are a gifted writer and now you can begin your education. Read about Bukowski in my new Hub. Welcome to Hubpages.

    • BenWritings profile imageAUTHOR

      BenWritings 

      7 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee

      Thanks SilverGenes!!

      I really hope you come back :]

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      SilverGenes 

      7 years ago

      Ben you write with heart and Nellieanna makes a good point about Rod McKuen's early work. I'll be back to read more :)

    • BenWritings profile imageAUTHOR

      BenWritings 

      7 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee

      Now I am going to have to research this Rod Mckuen Guy.

      I am still finding it hard to believe some of the things people have said about my work.

      Definitely makes me want to write more.

      Thanks :]

    • saddlerider1 profile image

      saddlerider1 

      7 years ago

      Ben if this Avatar is a picture of you, then I will simply say you are a young man with very much passion to give and offer to the right person. When that person turns the corner into your life you will know it believe me.

      Then you can share all you have to give and share with a passion that will set both your hearts ablaze. I know you will find it, if it doesn't find you first.

      Excellent piece here,loved the imagery and it brought back many memories of my early manhood. I agree with Nellieanna the queen of poetry at the Hubs, it smacks of Rod Mckuen's early poetry indeed, he would be proud to read this.

    • BenWritings profile imageAUTHOR

      BenWritings 

      7 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee

      Nellieanna, believe it or not, I have never even really read poetry.

      I have pretty much ZERO knowledge of it, or any famous writers.

      Just the fact that you mentioned the name of a known writer is awesome!

      Writing just seems to be in my blood, and its strange, considering how little reading I have done in my life.

      Thanks again

    • Nellieanna profile image

      Nellieanna Hay 

      7 years ago from TEXAS

      There is something reminiscent of Rod McKuen's early poetry in this one. The poignancy and a loneliness which doesn't promise to dispel even with others around. Are you familiar with his work?

      Being alone is not a bad state of being, though. It's up to the self. One is never alone if one is a poet, anyway.

      Great stuff! I'm voting it up and all the good accolades.

      and to epi - shame on you! - you are adored by scores of nubile gals! (what [pressure cookers? have I missed a vital link?)

    • epigramman profile image

      epigramman 

      7 years ago

      ....well Ben I spend Valentine's Day alone 365 days a year - I really thought this 'writing thing' of mine would get me 'lucky' when I came to Hubland in search of love and lust - it must be the fact that I write about women's head in pressure cookers, masturbating bees and vampires in speedos - lol lol lol lol - the ladies are staying away in troves - lol lol lol- but after reading this fine fine piece by you - it's very obvious that you are a sensitive, articulate, passionate and heartfelt writer - and you shall become quite a success story here at the Hub - because great writing is always admired - by anyone!

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      Nikki Wicked 

      7 years ago from Louisiana

      beautiful, and sad. Hope u can find your true valentine!

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