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What I don't Admit

Updated on September 5, 2012
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What I Don't Admit

By Tony DeLorger © 2012



Enraptured by my words of steel,

on solid ground when senses real,

when hearts do ache from truth withheld,

denial bent with lies to sell.



And me all sound within my head,

spurt forth the drone of relics dead,

unlearned in veiled pretentious right,

grasping for illusive light.



Pretence a coat I ware quite well,

its warmth a foolish acrid smell,

from rotting thoughts and lazy mind,

aloof and petty quandary rhyme.



Worse still the fact that I recant,

this knowledge worn in all I am,

and still I play my silly game,

my human plight a world to tame.



What works in life is often trite,

and I my illusive butterfly,

push hard to see what can I break,

and left what I can handle, take.



Illusions grow from seeds that glow,

and in their radiant beams I go,

envisaged worlds where love does reign,

and all my shit a sweet refrain.


Madness for all its departure makes,

sanity seem so loathed to take,

the front seat of my conscious will,

to drive me to my destined ill.



For life is hard and struggle fair,

and we the victims of despair,

that fall from grace and happy life,

by denying a smile when pain is rife.



And pretending pain is less than real,

is a fools game in fear reveal,

acceptance always the open door,

where light in waiting can bathe, restore.



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    • Tony DeLorger profile imageAUTHOR

      Tony DeLorger 

      6 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      Glad you enjoy it Aubrey. Nice to hear from you.

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      A.E. Williams 

      6 years ago from Hampton, GA

      Awesome work, Tony! :) Always a pleasure reading your work.

    • Tony DeLorger profile imageAUTHOR

      Tony DeLorger 

      6 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      You are always kind Leslie. I do appreciate your comments.

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      Tony DeLorger 

      6 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      Thanks Joy. thanks for dropping by.

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      Karen Silverman 

      6 years ago

      oh, how we deceive ourselves - and others. ego and fear are 2 very strong motivators that battle each other constantly for supremacy! A life well learned and well lived becomes more concerned with...acceptance and gratitude! You are an amazingly wise and brave man, Tony - that becomes more and more evident to me..tweeting, voting..

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      Joy56 

      6 years ago

      Nicely said......

    • Tony DeLorger profile imageAUTHOR

      Tony DeLorger 

      6 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      Thank you tobusiness, glad you appreciated it.

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      Jo Alexis-Hagues 

      6 years ago from Lincolnshire, U.K

      This is beautifully done, profoundly sad. Voting up.

    • Tony DeLorger profile imageAUTHOR

      Tony DeLorger 

      6 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      Thanks LaThing, so glad you connected. Nice to hear from you.

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      LaThing 

      6 years ago from From a World Within, USA

      Stunning! Very touching, describing the inner soul and the barriers outside..... Smiling, while your heart weeps! Voting up and ++

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      Tony DeLorger 

      6 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      Thanks Neny, glad enjoyed it. Thanks for dropping by.

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      nenytridiana 

      6 years ago from Probolinggo - Jawa Timur - Indonesia

      Love, despair and hope were strung beautifully. And the pictures are matched the content.

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