What If? The Question We Must Dare to Ask Ourselves
Lay It Down
What if I missed my chance for love, because it's foreign to me?
Or cheated someone of a friend, because I didn't know how to be?
What if I never really live or overcome my pain?
With joy learn how to forgive or shirk from any strain?
What if I fail to love my Lord, not seeing other's needs?
Or fall quite short of His reward, by choking out His seeds?
What if I give up all I've got, yet quit before I'm through?
How will I change what I am not seen face to face with you?
What if I measure all my life by what I've gained not lost?
I never had considered then, but now I count the cost?
What if I don't fulfill Your will, to you I will account?
Or live down in the valley when you want me on the mount?
What if I feel I've let you down, not giving way in all?
Or demanding my selfish way, instead of heeding Your great call?
What if Your love sometimes frightens me, so I want to run and hide?
And the little girl inside me cries, when Your arms are open wide?
Are You Ready for a Change?
Have you ever asked yourself, "What if I had done this differently? I have, and when I did, it wasn't to condemn myself, it was to re-evaluate what was important in my life.
At any given time in each of our lives, we have the freedom to ask ourselves, "Where am I heading, and am I on the right road?" In my life, I have sometimes questioned the direction I am going, or have gone because of regrets I have had about how I handled things, or people.
When I take time to reflect on my actions, and the people I have in my life and why, I grow. I have never been one to shirk the difficult moments when the realization comes that something is not working well in my life. If nothing changes, nothing changes.
It is remarkable how much of a rut we can get in by just going along day in and day out without reflections on what is important to us. For me, that sometimes changes, although I value relationships, some of the ones I have worked to maintain have not only been difficult, they have been stifling. Of course my most important relationship is my connection to my Creator.
This poem was written as a matter of course correction, on a day when I was inspired. It was a moment when I sat down and asked myself what was the motivation for my decisions, to serve myself or others. Life requires balance for us to flourish. I recognized change was necessary.
I continue to ask these questions as a gauge to my accountability for producing something beautiful with my life. I am not afraid, just seeking assurance, I have been complacent and even obstinate at times, not welcoming the hardships that produced serious change and growth.
These questions shook me loose from a "stuck" place and called me forward. Most often it has been to something bigger than I imagined, in which more trust was required. As a result, my personal sphere of influence was increased and I have become richer in the things that matter. This is what I live for, to know and to be known, fearlessly!