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What's Behind This Smile

Updated on March 19, 2013

They don't know how many tears I shed before I go to bed at night.

They don't know that I have to make a choice between my medication and food.

They don't know that I barely have gas to make it to work and pray that it don't stop on my way home.

They don't know that I have to take several pills twice a day to help keep my bipolar under control.


Yet I smile.

I keep my composure.

I don't break.

I save it for when I am alone.

I will never let them see what's behind this smile.



They don't know that I don't like what I see when I look in the mirror.

They don't know that I can't stand the sound of my own voice.

They don't know the emotional pain I feel on a daily basis.

They don't know how many times that I have attempted suicide.

They don't know how hard it is for me to stay out of the hospital.



Yet I smile.

I keep my composure.

I don't break.

I save it for when I am alone.

I will never let them see what's behind this smile.

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      Chibuzo Melvin Mobis 4 years ago from Biafra

      I felt this personal but believe me,they will never know what is behind that great smile. Voted awesome b/cos as a film maker,i understood each phrase like a scene in a script...