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When My Head Is Caught In A Tailspin

Updated on September 26, 2010

I Am Out Of Control

My head seems to be pounding as the same questions come up time and time again

Where is my life going ?

Who is going to benefit from what I have done ?

Am I just spinning my wheels and are they sinking deeper and deeper in the mud ?

I look ahead and I see a dismal forecast

I can't believe I haven't reached my shining star

I haven't made my dreams explode with powerful emotion

There seems to be one set back after another blocking my way

Each day I start fresh

Each thought I think is wonderfully driven by all my desires

I will not stop !

I don't know how

I am clearing my head

Sometimes I get tired of this

As I recycle what I have learned

Only to keep just a little and the rest left to waste

I take my good memories and make them vivid

I turn back time and build up a combination of good thoughts so I can reflect on constantly

To set my actions in motion

To begin with

I alarm my life with the shreiking sound

That nocks every bad thing down

I pick  my mind apart and find

One little thing that I can work with

I need just a little more time

I am letting go of my lingering misconceptions

I know there is only one way to surface from this old watering hole

To keep my mind focused

Even though my body has taken leave

It will all come together

If I keep constant track of my progress and override every bad situation

I have lossed my voice

I have been troubled by my insecurities

That come in all shaps and sizes

They also attack when my guard is down

Lovers and family and friends have turned into dead heads

They were once  my guiding light

Have slowly stalled and have left me alone

I have to find a way to recharge what I already know

I have to put age aside and rise above the rushing tide

I know my reflection has become rippled

I can see many inconsistacies in my thoughts

I not only have fought and have lossed

But I am slowly being attacked trying to make me question

My ever ending faith

That we all can succeed with out a doubt

As long as we believe in ourselves and the happiness we can deliver

When people we need have stepped out of the picture

Only to force ourselves to reach beyond what we have

To challange all the indestructable forces

Looking for a weakness

So small it was missed before

To bring us back to the place

That we are adored with great passion

We look into greatness and make it exsist

We turn the grains of sand into deserts to walk

Only to increase our displeasure

But we are now on the hunt

We have stopped being chased and have turned the tides once more

Only so slowly

This is a long journey back

Many mirages trick us

Each time we keep looking into our dreams

So confident that we have found

Only to notice the emptiness

The empty bag with nothing but a hole on both ends

Now I start to fill that lonely tea cup in my hand

With all the desires that will set the world on fire


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      DREAM ON 6 years ago

      Minnetonka Twin If I am down and out I try to just focus on being happy.When I am happy I just try to stay happy.So each day my happiness is going to continue a little bit more.Thanks for caring.

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      Linda Rogers 6 years ago from Minnesota

      I hear a lot of hope inside the sad words here. Life is a journey of ups and downs but you can see that there is climbing back up to passion, love and happiness. God Bless you! UP AWESOME BEAUTIFUL

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      DREAM ON 6 years ago

      theindianblues I am always searching for the best possible feeling.Unfortunately all these other feelings get in my way.I appreciate all the help from you as I am on my journey.Have a beautiful day.

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      theindianblues 6 years ago from Some where on the Globe

      Great work once again DREAM ON; playing with the emotions for peace... I am always puzzled with the feeling of how you are getting these wonderful thoughts? So simple but high touch... nice work as usual! Thank you for this nice work.

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      DREAM ON 6 years ago

      Micky Dee My life is stuck on rewind for the time being.Always searching for something better.Even if I can not see it yet.Thanks your kind words are appreciated.

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      Micky Dee 6 years ago

      Yo DREAM ON! Great piece. Just find time, be kind, rewind, keep that DREAM ON peace of mind! Write on!

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      DREAM ON 6 years ago

      Saleheensblog I am trying to shake it.It is not easy but then know one said it would be.Thank you for understanding.Dim Flaxenwick I really do love life when it is easy.But sometimes we don't have a choice.Hang with me until it gets easy again.Thanks for your support.

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      Dim Flaxenwick 6 years ago from Great Britain

      That was awesome.What are we? Who are we?. Sometimes life is so simple, then it´s not, then it´s easy again, then it´s not............................ Thank you. xx