Where I Am- some thoughts
Where I Am
By Tony DeLorger © 2012
I often lament the choices I’ve made,
yet they bring me to here.
I often celebrate my conquests,
yet they bring me pain,
and then lead me to here.
I often drown in sorrow,
wallow in self-pity and denial,
yet it all brings me to here.
I can soar like a bird released,
an embodiment of freedom and righteous mirth,
and still it brings me to here.
I am but a reflection of my experience,
and yet I am here, here as I am.
I wonder if my reflection changes,
am I the same,
will I still be here, or somewhere else.
Do I choose to be here,
regardless of my experience,
what I do to myself the causation
or result of my actions.
Am I the same, regardless of pain, of success or love,
or am I an endlessly evolving primordial swill,
clawing to become something of worth within an infinite existence.
Where am I, if not on a fast-moving train,
feet careless to touch the ground,
the world haplessly enacting its course,
with me at its central observation point.
Am I evolving or am I reflecting experience,
for all to judge and personify.
All I know is that I am here,
and despite my cranial determinations,
I remain here, regardless.
For by whose design, is irrelavent,
I am where I am because of who I am.
I am me, and nothing less.