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Bitter Sweet Poetry: Wild Beauty Fly Free

Updated on June 26, 2013

Wild Beauty

Wild beauty needs to fly free.

It can not be possessed

Contained,

Captured

Or tamed.

It is there for the whole world

To love and adore.




The Lesson I Learned


For a brief moment in time, I had the pleasure of knowing one of the freest spirits I have ever known. She was a wild beauty and I fell in love with her to my core. I could never imagine someone so beautiful in my life, but there was a dark side beneath that beauty, and I was so blinded in adoration I missed all the signs.

A victim of child abuse since the age of 7, her story was like a nightmare I could never imagine. Molested by people who were supposed to protect her, scorned by a mother who saw her little girl as competition instead of the precious gift she was, and abused by a father who thought her a stubborn horse that needed to be tamed instead of a beautiful bird destined to be free. Through all this adversity she emerged into the world a woman strong, fearless, and good. I saw all this in her, and my heart ached to give her a world full of the goodness she deserved as a child.

Somewhere along the way my pure intentions became tainted with self interests. It became more important to me that I was the one to give these things to her, and not anyone else. I grew possessive and controlling, and when she pulled away I tried to hold her by force. Naturally, she ran away completely and all I was left with were painful memories of what used to be.

It's been years since I lost her, and the one thing I would like to say more than anything else is that I was wrong. She deserved the goodness I wanted to give to her, but she had to be the one to give it to herself. I should of shared with her my happiness, and not depended on her to make me happy. I was a fool and I am no longer afraid to admit it. I now know that wild beauty has to fly free, and it is meant for the whole world to enjoy.

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    • PHILLYDREAMER profile imageAUTHOR

      Jose Velasquez 

      7 years ago from Lodi, New Jersey

      I already have. I'm at peace with what happened now.

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      Jose Velasquez 

      7 years ago from Lodi, New Jersey

      Thanks Sheila. I was listening to the video I posted with this, and i felt inspired.

    • PHILLYDREAMER profile imageAUTHOR

      Jose Velasquez 

      7 years ago from Lodi, New Jersey

      I don't know if she was a soulmate, but she was special.

    • PHILLYDREAMER profile imageAUTHOR

      Jose Velasquez 

      7 years ago from Lodi, New Jersey

      I think it's to teach us something so we can know better in the future.

    • PHILLYDREAMER profile imageAUTHOR

      Jose Velasquez 

      7 years ago from Lodi, New Jersey

      Memories feel a lot better to me now, cause I choose to remember them fondly

    • PHILLYDREAMER profile imageAUTHOR

      Jose Velasquez 

      7 years ago from Lodi, New Jersey

      Yes they are, but things are better now.

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      Rosemary Sadler 

      7 years ago from Hawkes Bay - NewZealand

      A hard lesson to learn but you will do it right the next time someone walks into your life.

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      sheilanewton 

      7 years ago from North Shields, UK

      A big huge awesome - F---A---B---U---L--O---U---S for this superb piece of writing. I love your poetry - I ADORED this.

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      Karen Silverman 

      7 years ago

      Oh, Phil..i feel for you, because...i understand. You became her father, and she had no choice but to run. Understand, Philly...she had no choice! Take solace in that AND in the fact that you grew..you learned...you evolved - and you'll never make that mistake again. Let it go so the next soul mate can come! BeautifulandUp!

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      Michael J Rapp 

      7 years ago from United States

      Very eloquent, and a sad tale. Who knows why people drift through our lives.

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      Audrey Howitt 

      7 years ago from California

      I agree with Support Med. Treasure the lesson and the day!

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      Support Med. 

      7 years ago from Michigan

      Sometimes lessons are learned the hard way - hope the best for the free spirit you knew and treasure your lesson learned. Today is a new beginning.

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