From the first moment I saw you,
I loved you. That fire in your eyes,
easy smile, honest laugh, warm touch
You let me right into your space
You had this love for the world
The places you had seen and a
desire for all you hadn't done yet
I could sit and dine with you and listen to all your stories
you fascinated me, you took me places in my mind
those places I know I'd never go, but so desperately wanted to hear about.
At the same time, you were taken with me, as much as I with you
so we'd wine and dine, find things to do and see, explore our world here
together. Falling somewhere into a mystical realm of mutual love and excitement that somehow seemed never enough.
It could have been the mixture of us, pheromones set free
You made me feel as if I was in another world with you, where I had no worries, and I could be free to express myself. Nothing I could do was wrong. I wanted nothing but to make you happy and to bring you in to share my happiness. I loved who I was when I was with you. We brought out the best in me, I was free to be the mystical woman with power I'd always known was there and you delighted in my confidence. You were the first person who loved me for how strong and independent I was despite any adversity. In our love was freedom. My soul burst open, and I loved you for that, and I loved the person you are..
I saw how you were at work and when you came home you played with me. We'd be so much more relaxed and all those times we spent laughing...and the times with our magical beast. It was if we belonged together. I can't remember ever feeling so content in my life...why did I give that up? Was it me off chasing a dream I felt I had to chase to Colorado? Is that why it fell apart? Nothing has been right for me since then really.
Since then my tarot cards have been a jumbled mess. I can't get a handle on anythng permanent. Life seems to have lost its meaning, for me life seems to have lost its romantic mystery; the joi de vie. Somewhere I made a big mistake and got off on the wrong stop. Now I've learned and I'm back on for the ride. I'm no longer driving. Eight years have passed.
Then I saw your note, I called your phone. Can it really be true? Did some part of you miss me at all too? I haven't thought of you that often, I've been trying to just go on, but to hear your voice on the other end of the line today brought so many memories flooding back to me. Happy ones. I can't remember any bad moments between us, it just wasn't time. Life intervened.
There, I've put my feelings into words, I'll be able to sleep tonight. :)
And you've climbed Everest....been all around the world, in some countries I dare not name. In the thick of it all and in some beautiful places too. And you've got a lot more places left to go. I'm so proud of you for following your dreams...I love the attitude and perseverance you have...and that age is simply a number. I love that you've gotten a canine companion. If its written again in the stars, I hope there is another chapter in there about us however small or wide it may be.