Writing – a way to express
Hello friends out there in HP town…I have been off from writing for over a month. It was very much intentional. Rather it was a decision not to write for some time at a length just to see how it feels. I can write at any time, just need to simply sit and start punching the keys in the keyboard at any given chance. Thus is the craving for an outlet of emotion. However poems are personal favorites but if somebody ask me to write on any topic it would have been my privilege to actually plunge in to the activity at hand. But for time constraint, though I wish to express more through writing sometimes I have to pull back the brake in the speed. It may be the service front or family/friend front or the social obligation that binds like many other out there, the urge to put down the thoughts in words. Thus many feelings die without even being put in to the format of words for many of us in many of instances. Again there are many people who can only write when they get in to the proper mind frame. It may vary person to person like many other activities as well. So I have decided to pull the brake of my writing spree for little longer time just to experience the moments.
It was like suffocating journeys for me throughout this length of time that I made myself forget about writing. Just to feel the urge and need in me. It was an intentional attempt to experiment the innermost urge for the need of expression. Are you trying to figure out where I am heading toward? No problem friends…the answer is deep within me. Everybody may have a different inclination toward different things. One needs to find out the exact option/s where they could feel their mind, heart, body and soul experiences the upper most level of satisfaction to sour high for an instant way of rejuvenation. If the freedom of expression in any desired form is not being achieved, then that particular suffocating and forced bottled up experience can actually lead to mere discontent. The process of connection to our inner selves can be a way to reflex to the origin of our being and for a total detoxification process of our mind, heart and soul. Without our stimulated knowledge many times our heart, mind and brain is crammed with toxic thoughts which usually never are positive or beneficial in any sense to us. So sometimes we may try the process of cleansing our thought process with systematic approach. Here the attempt is to experiment on my own mind, heart and feelings firsthand.
First, I started with the process of bottling up the entire urge to express. For me it was writing down my feelings through poetry. That is the most comfortable outlet particularly for me. I tried to feel happy and content with life without writing. And let me tell you, it was never been possible though outwardly I was smiling but inside I wanted to shed tears. It was very much of a burden as I intentionally never let myself express when I wanted to put down my thoughts into words.
I tried every other smaller ways to feel the world around me. But I was lost. Somewhere again I stopped reading. That is again for me a great source of true joy. From early childhood I have been enjoying these two processes of self discovery. I love to read and write a lot. After I stopped reading my normal doses of anything and everything, it was like; I am completely disconnected from life in truest of senses. I was just flowing with the flow without even feeling the wave. The process almost made me feel kind of numbness till the core.
A simple way to explain the effort is the way if you stop breathing, then only you will realize the essence of the simplest process which is always so normal that while we are in deep sleep even we continuously breathe. But for example, if we are under water then the mere simple act of breathing can be felt as if the most extra ordinary thing in life. Thus when one feels to express through any for; if they do so, then they will never usually feel the actual value of the same process. I am feeling so much good so that I am writing now; it is now so real precious for me, at least. Any activities, may it be reading or writing or singing or dancing or for that matter any kinds of feats that make one feel great and kind of refreshing to make life worth living little more are important to be realized. It is best to be connected with your inner selves through the most favorite activities and that way we can catch hold of our time and life in a more pleasant way.
We tend to forget the times and moments of life that we pass in normal course to run for our professional or personal ambitions. Then we die without living many of our dreams which also dries up without been ever realized to the full or even to half extent. But when we are happy, then in those moments we almost catch hold of time as well as life in our fist to cherish it more again in our sweet folds of memories. Otherwise, typical and not-so happy moments pass through our fingers like sands passing through and we miss out so much without even realizing the value of time and life gone by. So in all small and sweetest way we should try to live our life to the optimum coverage possible. The activities that we enjoy are a simple ways to feel refreshed and content. Thus now putting these feelings in to words is a way that I am feeling alive and so much more rejuvenated that may be some times money even can’t buy these treasured emotions. Subsequently, a bit jamming of most natural process is a simple way to feel the value of it in our lives. For different person the way may be different. For me it’s a way to express my deepest emotions through writing and for you or the other person it may be any activity which is closest to your heart. So if you please, then you may try and practice the process of assessing yourself in a new and easy way of “jamming the natural urge” way to go for something and anything of your choice. Welcome to feel a new energy to adore the thing/activity more intensely and passionately to live your life more than ever.