The joy you see coming from me? Wow....I believe that all you are seeing is the grace of God. The grace and favor that has been bestowed upon me because I move in a faith that surpasses all wordly understanding.
It is a shock, to me, that I get this question right now in my life, because everyone around me that does not like to hear the word or God has persecuted me and my spirituality. I do not understand why they want their way to be the only way and why God's way never plays a part in their lives.
The joy you see? I have walked a long walk in my 37 years of life and I have realized in the past two years, that IN my walk I was not alone. God kept me all those days I thought I wanted to die. He kept me when I could NOT see and could not focus. I made a statement a few weeks ago about helping a relative see where God is right now in her newly 'saved' life; I was trying to help because I didn't want her to miss it like I did. I did not want her to struggle later, when she can have abundance later.
I will tell you, point blank, when God asks you what you did for HIS kingdom, you better have an answer. Now I do! That is my joy; to know that with all I did and do to help others, and with all I did and STILL DO to share GOD'S WORD and not my word, HE knows I tried and when it is over, it's over.
I am faithful and a willing servant; no matter the trials I am encouraged to know that someone still sees my smile.