Most people cannot stand being by themselves. I crave it. My kids are grown and they have been a joy to raise, but it is so nice to be by myself for awhile. I spent 28 years raising our kids, whose ages were widely strung out. My husband recently died and I spent the two years prior, running to see him at the convalescent home. I spent the 8 years prior to that being his caregiver.
I need to spend some time with me now, to remember who I am and what I like to do. I think I like me, but I can't remember. I used to like sitting on the front porch and admiring the view, the lizards running around on the rails, and reading. I have beautiful mountain views both front and back. I sit out there and take a book. The dogs will either lay next to me or go exploring their 3 acre yard. I have company when I want it since my kids all live within 6 miles of me.
I get help with my gardens from my oldest boy, who is a landscaper. He has helped me get my rose garden planted and landscaped. He is also helping me get a raised veggie garden and a nice herb garden going. I used to love gardening, but have not had the time for so long, that he is having to reteach me, like I taught him so many years ago. I am enjoying my time alone, mostly because I have not had the luxury of being alone for so many years.
I have never been someone that needed to be entertained. I can be entertained by doing something that I enjoy doing. It is becoming more rare and yet more common as people retreat into themselves and their social media. I never could understand a group of people on their phones, using their social media; and yet not a word is being spoken to each other. Make the most of your time alone and also make the most of your time with people. You will be considered more interesting by your acquaintances.