broken and sad
I feel so alone,like nobody cares
the end seems near, there is only despair
I have given up hope, lost the will to live
if only someone will call, I have so much to give
but my cell never rings,i just stare at the screen
thinking how worthless I must be,cause no-one ever calls me
unless they need something,like money or a favor
that makes it even worse knowing I'm only good for labor.
How did I get here,what have I done
I'm not a bad person,I just wonder alone
as the darkness crawls closer,I feel so nauseous and panic strict.
if i die this second, it wouldn't be too quick
but Its never that easy for me,i am abandoned and alone
so my heart turns to cancer as hard as a stone
down a never endind spiral my mood is falling down
will I hit the bottom? If I do will there be a sound?
I wish someone would rescue me, a loved one or my family or friends
but it seems I have lost them too, on them I cannot depend.
I can't even acknowledge that I am alive, when I feel so brokenhearted,full of hate,rage I despise.
maybe I'm in hell and I have already passed,not knowing what happened how long will this last?
it seems like a second takes an hour to pass,and even the slightest noise sounds like shattering glass.
If you think I am exaggerating, I assure you I'm not
I feel like I lost it all,everything I've got
so I have decided to humble myself and ask God to save me
I asked him to forgive me for my sins and waited.
Slowly but surely I am feeling better as I type
do not mistake me,this is true and not hype.
I feel an inner peace calming me from the inside out
I'm feeling better now and there is no doubt.
I was surprised when my cell rang and I hear those three words
I love you son,how are you? it was dad I had heard
but how was this even possible when he died over 5 years ago,
I know with God all things are possible and I guess this goes to show.
If you will put your faith in him, he will not fail you.
Your blessing will be many, it will amaze you
because with him in your life,happiness will be found
and all the bad things in the past can be buried underground.
I know satan will come after you,because he is the great deceiver.
he wants you to suffer and be sad all the time,he wants misery and death for you,isn't that so unkind
but with God in you life you are safe just because you are a believer.
So take these words to heart,and ask him if you'd like and you to can have everlasting happiness,with no suffering or strife
I would like to thank him now, for giving his only son, so we can have everlasting life and peace for everyone.
Thanks & may God be with you always and whatever you do today #makeitcount.