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deflated

Updated on February 22, 2012

your absence

leaves me breathless.

empty corners

vacant spaces

where you used to reside

make me feel homeless

and fragile.

everything and nothing

all of the spaces in between

what we used to feel

what we feel now

what i yearn for

and what i no longer can accept

invade me

and flood me with the knowledge

of you.

no longer is your absence OK

no longer can i be denied your scent

my mind flushes with vivid images of you.

the smell of your exhale as you sleep

the way you'd trace my shape with your eyes

as you would whisper to me

that you were going to be different

better

i want all of you

because your ugly

is as precious to me

as your beauty.

i speak to you silently at night

even though you aren't there

and fill your silence

with everything you've ever said to me

when all is quiet

at the moment in between wake and sleep

i can hear your heavy breaths

and it sooths me.







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    • the pink umbrella profile image
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      the pink umbrella 6 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      thank you so much!!!

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      Jennifer 6 years ago from West Virginia

      Love this one too... I love

      "because your ugly

      is as precious to me

      as your beauty."

      I think this should be every relationship - Love the good and the bad. :D

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      the pink umbrella 6 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      Hey thanks lady!

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      Kebennett1 6 years ago from San Bernardino County, California

      Very nice. You can really feel the emotions. A well written piece.

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      the pink umbrella 6 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      Thanks nikki im using the time to work on myself. Im seeing it as an opportunity to grow. Still miss him like crazy though

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      Nikki Wicked 6 years ago from Louisiana

      Well thats good that he is trying to better himself. and even better that you are going to wait for him. I hope he will be there sooner rather than later. I know waiting can really suck and can get pretty hard but just keep faith and remember how much you love him. Hope it works out for you!

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      the pink umbrella 6 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      Slingo i love when you read my work :)

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      the pink umbrella 6 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      Nikki - hes out there bettering himself and when he is through he will be someone that's there.we just got so close before he left that its even harder to be without him now. :(

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      Nikki Wicked 6 years ago from Louisiana

      "because your ugly is as precious to me as your beauty." Love doesnt get any deeper than that. When you can love someone and accept them for everything they are..flaws and all. That is beautiful. Its painful that we can love someone so much even when he's not there...or perhaps doesnt even love us back... The heart can be quite pathetic at times, but it is in that that it is strong. Never giving up, always holding on, always picking itself up, healing.

      "i speak to you silently at night

      even though you aren't there

      and fill your silence

      with everything you've ever said to me"

      I've been there and I've done that. Remembering all the things he said and how we were together is the worst part and the hardest part to get over. Let them be good memories, and make new memories..with someone that IS there.

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      sligobay 6 years ago from east of the equator

      Welcome home Pink'Um. I am deflated without your heart, however pained. Our memories are forever freshly imprinted upon our souls. A familiar throbbing breath is often overlooked until it is no longer present. Slumber and dream and cling to the moments which sooth.

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      the pink umbrella 6 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      You guys are so awesome. Im going to try really hard to do at least one a week. You have no idea what ive been going through. But i feel im ready to start posting again.

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      Vinaya Ghimire 6 years ago from Nepal

      I have not read your work for a long time. This poem simply amazed me. It feels good to read you again.

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      zzron 6 years ago from Houston, TX.

      Wow, this was really awesome. You really know how to touch the soul.

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      the pink umbrella 6 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      Thank you duffsmom. Its taken me forever to find the words.

    • the pink umbrella profile image
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      the pink umbrella 6 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      Oh johnny thank you so much. My feelings for him have lain dorment for so long and im feeling so much now. You appreciating my work means so much.

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      P. Thorpe Christiansen 6 years ago from Pacific Northwest, USA

      Wow - well done!

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      Johnny 6 years ago

      Thank you. I am pleased by your emotions. I love to read your heart. This is divine,"as you would whisper to me

      that you were going to be different

      better

      i want all of you

      because your ugly

      is as precious to me

      as your beauty."

      You are wonderful

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