ArtsAutosBooksBusinessEducationEntertainmentFamilyFashionFoodGamesGenderHealthHolidaysHomeHubPagesPersonal FinancePetsPoliticsReligionSportsTechnologyTravel
  • »
  • Books, Literature, and Writing

defeated

Updated on July 11, 2012


Desperate cries once left my lips

Even tears seem so far away

Frightening thoughts invade every moment

Every dream a nightmare these days

Always clutching to crumbling earth it seems

Thoughts of the battles I used to meet

Ended now, shattered in

Defeat

Comments

    0 of 8192 characters used
    Post Comment

    • pennyofheaven profile image

      pennyofheaven 5 years ago from New Zealand

      My dear sister, You paint a very vivid description of powerful emotions that are meant to flow in and out because that is the nature of emotions. I realize you are aware of this and I also know that the strength and courage deep within your inner most being will rise to the occasion when the time comes. Lots of love and healing to you.

    • Eiddwen profile image

      Eiddwen 5 years ago from Wales

      A brilliant share and here's to so many more by you.

      Eddy.

    • Maralexa profile image

      Marilyn Alexander 5 years ago from Vancouver, Canada and San Jose del Cabo, Mexico

      This is incredibly beautiful, Erin. I have a real sense of understanding some of your pain and perhaps, hopelessness. I read this and immediately think of "Waiting for my wings." I found a similar sense of hopeless, helpless defeat in that piece of beautiful writing. As a matter of fact, I frequently think of "Waiting for my wings" when I hide from the world because of my pain. It reminds me that I can not even guess at my future and perhaps I should just let it unfold naturally.

      It is never easy for me but I must say, your writing has truly helped me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Marilyn (Maralexa)

    • always exploring profile image

      Ruby Jean Richert 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

      One of these days we're going to meet and find why we have this connection until then be happy. I have never been to Jamaica. I did go to the Bahama islands in the 70's and i was miserable. I wanted to be home with my husband Jack. I was with my second husband after my divorce. He took 15 men and their wives because they had made so much money in fescu. I had nothing in commen with any of them. I wanted to go home and be with Jack, but I couldn't. I couldn't forgive him for being unfaithful with my best friend. Life goes on. Hang in there. We are survivers. Love you my friend..

    • Erin LeFey profile image
      Author

      Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland

      you're right, you got me. its my pattern. somehow that hope always does get to me somehow. I never will be truly defeated because I'm a survivor. Thanks for reminding me. :)

    • mckbirdbks profile image

      mckbirdbks 5 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

      I am reading along, and do not hear words of someone who is defeated. A few days in the Jamaican sun should recharge you and you will be ready to face the world with the same determination that you have always shown.

    • Erin LeFey profile image
      Author

      Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland

      a cruise sounds like an excellent idea Ruby. Sometimes when things start closing in, I think its healthy to get away for a bit just to break the chain of stress. Its there when you get back but sometimes a rejuvenated YOU can make all the difference in how you look at it. I'm doing the EXACT same thing, I booked a trip to Jamaica. I love ya Ruby. Take care girlfriend. One of these days, lets just book a trip and visit each other!

    • always exploring profile image

      Ruby Jean Richert 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

      Erin, Life sure does SUCK sometime. I've been down since I lost my Sis. Virgie, just about the time i think i can forget, a memory pops up and my crying starts again. I've been thinking about taking a cruise, but can't seem to get excited enough to know where. We both are going to feel better. I know you will find a better job, with your talent, it's just a matter of time. Take care Girlfriend..Love Ya ******

    • Erin LeFey profile image
      Author

      Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland

      thanks Mck, this was a long series of battles...ever since trying to come back after my disability - my company never has found a permanent position for me and finally they laid me off. I've lost faith in them, and the whole process has chipped away at my self esteem. I'm sorry to be dark. You know me...I need to sit there in order to emerge again on the other side stronger.I just can't even see the other side right now.

    • Erin LeFey profile image
      Author

      Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland

      Its my battle, its been a long one...going back to work with my job and they've laid me off again. Ruby, its me who's defeated. I'm so very tired sister. Love ya.

    • mckbirdbks profile image

      mckbirdbks 5 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

      Kinda of dark. Some of these things are losing a battle not the war. Discouraged rather than defeated. All the greatest Generals are aware of this feeling.

    • always exploring profile image

      Ruby Jean Richert 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

      I want to think this is a victory. A battle you've won, am i correct? Then when I reread it, The line, ' Every dream a nightmare these days ' makes me wonder if your battle continues. Whichever it is, only you can explain. Very compelling words to ponder. Love ya...

    working

    This website uses cookies

    As a user in the EEA, your approval is needed on a few things. To provide a better website experience, hubpages.com uses cookies (and other similar technologies) and may collect, process, and share personal data. Please choose which areas of our service you consent to our doing so.

    For more information on managing or withdrawing consents and how we handle data, visit our Privacy Policy at: "https://hubpages.com/privacy-policy#gdpr"

    Show Details
    Necessary
    HubPages Device IDThis is used to identify particular browsers or devices when the access the service, and is used for security reasons.
    LoginThis is necessary to sign in to the HubPages Service.
    Google RecaptchaThis is used to prevent bots and spam. (Privacy Policy)
    AkismetThis is used to detect comment spam. (Privacy Policy)
    HubPages Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide data on traffic to our website, all personally identifyable data is anonymized. (Privacy Policy)
    HubPages Traffic PixelThis is used to collect data on traffic to articles and other pages on our site. Unless you are signed in to a HubPages account, all personally identifiable information is anonymized.
    Amazon Web ServicesThis is a cloud services platform that we used to host our service. (Privacy Policy)
    CloudflareThis is a cloud CDN service that we use to efficiently deliver files required for our service to operate such as javascript, cascading style sheets, images, and videos. (Privacy Policy)
    Google Hosted LibrariesJavascript software libraries such as jQuery are loaded at endpoints on the googleapis.com or gstatic.com domains, for performance and efficiency reasons. (Privacy Policy)
    Features
    Google Custom SearchThis is feature allows you to search the site. (Privacy Policy)
    Google MapsSome articles have Google Maps embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    Google ChartsThis is used to display charts and graphs on articles and the author center. (Privacy Policy)
    Google AdSense Host APIThis service allows you to sign up for or associate a Google AdSense account with HubPages, so that you can earn money from ads on your articles. No data is shared unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    Google YouTubeSome articles have YouTube videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    VimeoSome articles have Vimeo videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    PaypalThis is used for a registered author who enrolls in the HubPages Earnings program and requests to be paid via PayPal. No data is shared with Paypal unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    Facebook LoginYou can use this to streamline signing up for, or signing in to your Hubpages account. No data is shared with Facebook unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    MavenThis supports the Maven widget and search functionality. (Privacy Policy)
    Marketing
    Google AdSenseThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Google DoubleClickGoogle provides ad serving technology and runs an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Index ExchangeThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    SovrnThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Facebook AdsThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Amazon Unified Ad MarketplaceThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    AppNexusThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    OpenxThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Rubicon ProjectThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    TripleLiftThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Say MediaWe partner with Say Media to deliver ad campaigns on our sites. (Privacy Policy)
    Remarketing PixelsWe may use remarketing pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to advertise the HubPages Service to people that have visited our sites.
    Conversion Tracking PixelsWe may use conversion tracking pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to identify when an advertisement has successfully resulted in the desired action, such as signing up for the HubPages Service or publishing an article on the HubPages Service.
    Statistics
    Author Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide traffic data and reports to the authors of articles on the HubPages Service. (Privacy Policy)
    ComscoreComScore is a media measurement and analytics company providing marketing data and analytics to enterprises, media and advertising agencies, and publishers. Non-consent will result in ComScore only processing obfuscated personal data. (Privacy Policy)
    Amazon Tracking PixelSome articles display amazon products as part of the Amazon Affiliate program, this pixel provides traffic statistics for those products (Privacy Policy)