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Intervention-Fighting the Disease of Addiction
Quitting is more than giving up the drug- it's giving up who you were and finding who you can be.
Addiction is hard enough without the judgment of others who have no idea what it feels like to be lost in that much confusion and pain. The pull from within is terrifying and the fear alone is enough to bring the strongest of people to their knees. If you can't understand the loss a person feels when they lose themselves to addiction-rather than judge, open your ears to hear and perhaps your hand to someone who needs it to get back up. Although sobriety is something that each have to accomplish alone- the support of others can be what helps each of us stay there.
Blessed are each who can survive their disease to tell their story.. Blessed are those who have the support of people who care about what they are trying to accomplish. Blessed are those who had someone care enough to step in and say stop-no more-let me help you, when you were not in a position to help yourself. Blessed are those who decided to quit and fight everyday with their choice to stay sober.
Twist and Turn-Scream and Shout...Thank God I was given the chance to see what this life is all about.
*Congratulations Lorie6, for 2 years of sobriety
*Much love to Kimberly, I am proud of you for what you are accomplishing each and every day and what you have decided to dedicate your time too.
*Blondepoet, your strength and beauty is far more on the inside than on the outside, all could learn so much from the way you have decided to survive
*Hugz to Pam Kennedy-for finding support and giving support in the forums
and to all who have faught for more than their lives-you have a strength to be proud of
One more hit, One more time-If I keep going will I survive?







It's time-to find my way home
Twist and turn, can you feel the burn?
Twist and turn, it's now your turn.
I know this is wrong, but for awhile it seemed so right.
It’s the only place I found to get through the darkness of the night.
I pray to God to please save me,
Save me from who I don’t want to be.
I can’t stop and I can’t breathe.
What I need is now my disease.
One more line, one more shot
If I keep on going will this loneliness stop?
One more hit, one more time,
If I keep on going, will I survive?
I lost myself when I was looking the other way
No one noticed I was gone until I was past my boundaries for the day
Feel the pain dissipate.
Feel my fears deteriorate.
Life is cruel- I am wrong.
The pain is deep and lasts too long.
I pray to God to save me.
From whom I have become.
Please don’t leave.
I’m scared to be alone.
Can anyone hear me-?
I can’t find my way back home.
Twist and turn I lost myself.
Twist and turn I am now someone else.
I saw my reflection,
That girl isn’t me.
I saw my reflection of who I don’t want to be.
I can’t stop,
I can’t breathe,
What I need has become my disease.
Take it in.
Feel it drip.
Feel it drain- Feel no pain.
I take a sip-I swallow it down,
And as I swallow I hit the ground.
I know what is wrong-I know I am not right,
But I am afraid of tomorrow and I can lose myself tonight.
Screaming so loud within my head.
Screaming so loud I pray for death.
Please someone see me-for who I can be.
Please someone save me before I bleed.
Shiver and shake-let it all out,
Shiver and shout- until I finally pass out.
Please don’t leave me,
I am so scared.
Please don’t leave me.
I know I've created this hell.
Will it get better- will the pain stop?
Without the drain-I feel what I am not.
Squeeze myself-I am alone.
This is my time to find my way back home.
Through the tears and screams,
I think I see something more-
I see a glimpse of Me?
It's been so long since I've seen her.
Close my eyes so I don’t see.
Close my eyes and lose my reality.
Shiver and Shake, I found me
Shiver and Shake----and then I feel my release.
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Comments
There is no other fight like it...giving up an addiction is incredibly difficult and incredibly rewarding. It is an inside job that is painful and rewarding....it is finally finding freedom and it is finding out who you really are. Beautiful hub my dear friend!
WOW ...what a beautifully powerful piece. It took me back to the depths of my addiction. I have not used hard drugs in about 7 years ...and just celebrated 1 yr sober(finally quit weed and booze) on March 15th.
Thank you for this insightful and inspiring piece.
David
I want so badly to share this with my daughter, but unfortunately don't know how. Not because of the subject matter, just that I don't have a way to get it to her.
It was like you were speaking for her in this poem...this is her life and feelings at this moment in time.
The times I get to see her she is in this place, struggling to make it right, knowing she is going to cave because it doesn't hurt as much if she does. Knowing that it will hurt her worse if she does. Hoping all the while that someone can really see her, not as this person she has become, but as the person she could be. Picking up on the eyes that dart away as she is talking about her newest plan to escape this prison. Seeing the doubt and hearing the mundane words that follow those words. Knowing no one thinks she is telling the truth this time...
We are the people that can really see her. Unfortunately we are also only the parents. And parents don't count as much as her peers. We count...just not enough for this.
When she blows through here, she tells me stories that break my heart of so-called friends and the damage they do with their words and their actions.
I don't blame them...this is a hard addiction to stick around for, especially if you are young. I have found that the youth of our world don't have time for those who have lost their way. They want everything wrapped up in a 30 minute episode and if not, well...time is marching on with other dramas to attend to. And sticking it out with a druggie isn't high priority. I don't find this vulgar...I think it is basically human nature in this time period. With all that is going on in this world, unless you have an invested interest, why deal with someone who is only going to invite more stress into your life and possibly pull you down with them.
But my daughter has us. We are definitely not her first choice because we won't accept the excuses and dramas that are prevailent to this addiction.
But we are also always going to be a choice. No matter how hard it could be for her and for us, no matter if she rejects us time and again, no matter what... We will always keep that choice open.
Because we hope. Because we believe. Because we see her for who she really is and not this person she has become in her altered states. Because we believe that she will one day break out of this fog that envelopes her life and take us up on the offers that will always be made available to her.
Because someday this will be just a story in the life of my child on her way to becoming the woman she is going to be. And it will be because she made the choice to leave it all behind, like leaves fallen from a tree, to be raked up and burned, forever ridding herself of those times she felt she was nothing. And to blossom into the person she can be.
Not because her parents told her so. Not because she felt peer pressure. It will be because she is strong enough to overcome this, even if with help it will still be on her shoulders to make it happen.
I have no doubt in my mind that she is strong enough. I have no doubt in my mind that she will succeed.
But if I'm wrong...I..we will still be here, trying and offering any way out. And no one will know but us.
I've recently have seen a tiny glimmer at the end of this horrible tunnel we are stuck in. And I am filled with hope that this time it won't be the train.
Hi H.C Porter, Great hub here and the video was just fine. How to save a life is what people should be trying to figure out to help their friend, wife/husband with their addiction. I was fortunate enough that I was able to quit on my own, well I shouldn't say on my own, because I did have the support from all of my family, mostly my wife and with God that helped me get through each day one at a time and will continue to do so for the rest of my life. Your poem was great too. Great Job!
Mark
Powerful poem and writing on addiction. Thanks so much for sharing this beautiful piece. Addiction is EVERYWHERE!
It is amazing as without knowing I have been drawn to you Lorlie, Kim and a few others, in the beginning not even knowing why. Now I know we are sisters in our struggles, our triumphs, so much in common. I am so proud to read this hub H.C, together we can make a difference by sharing where we came from and who we are today. You are a beautiful soul, inside and out, and I am honored to know you. xo
Your words affect me...when someone bares herself in such succinct diction...I like in your comment above when you referred to wanting to tell it 'raw'...I couldn't have said it better.
Oh H.C this hub was just....lost for words. When you wrote the poem was it referring to you or someone else. Just trying to determine if you have had an addiction too as the words in your hub are so real, so sad, so beautiful. Thank-you especially for the mention, may many of us be a beacon of light and love for those who have lost their way home. By the way your beauty is amazing.
Wow, what a great hub! This is the definitive article on this subject. I was so impressed by this! Beating an addiction is a real battle, and more people will appreciate it by reading this! Rating this so Up!
wow... I felt every stanza. I have never suffered from adddiction.. but I have a new understanding after reading this. Great hub! ~hugs~
Addictions affect almost all families H.C. I know someone who is an alcoholic and your poem reminds me of his pain. He went from having so much potential and promise to being homeless. Getting over an addiction is the hardest monkey anyone can get of their back. I realize that even though people get mad at the addicted person, one must never judge.
Thanks for a hub that touches many. I really enjoyed reading this one, it is very true how addictions eats at the very soul of the person. Your empathy and support for those who struggle with addictions is felt here.
I give credit to anyone and everyone who can battle their demons day in and day out. Sometimes we don't always win the battles, but to keep fighting is to keep living. When we can find help and support, the battle goes that much better. Your support to the folks you mentioned--as well as everyone else who looks in a mirror and sees a face masked with pain and fear--goes a long way. HC, this was a wonderful hub and your caring and support is truly special.
Mike
i am a recovering addict your hub is the best one i have read yet thankyou so so much for reconizing this dease
My heart goes out to all who struggle with addictions. I applaud all who have overcome them to move on to a better life.
Anyone that has gone through and survived any type of addiction is to be applauded. What a beautiful tribute to them all and to all who are struggling to free themselves. You are so right H.C., we are constantly told what we are not doing right, so it is always refreshing to hear what we are doing right.
Thanks for the congrats, H.C., and congratulations to you on your marvelous collection of hubs on addiction.
Keep on keepin' on!
I just linked you, good idea! :) great work
Good for people who are having a problem. Excellent poem!
I hope your Hub helps people, its very thoughtful . I love that Fray song!
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