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A Matter of Time

Updated on August 21, 2011




leaves are falling to the ground;

red, yellow, brown

there is nothing i can say to take the pain away

it's quiet

so quiet

and yet in this eternity of death there is a sense of wholeness

i am connected to the earth

i am so little in this realm of make believe

i think this is life

i can feel

i can smell

i can touch

but where is the reality

is it in this madness we call life

what is important

the loss of you

but are you really gone? 

where are you really

are you deep within the earth's womb?

or is your soul soaring high in the sky

with the eagles

laughing at my sorrow

my emptyness

my nothingness

where are you.....? 


who left me all alone


i hate this feeling.


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    • jujubees profile imageAUTHOR


      7 years ago from Rhode Island

      Thank you Movie Master...I appreciate your kinds words. I'm glad to be a part of this community.

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      Movie Master 

      7 years ago from United Kingdom

      The loss of a loved one, that desperate empty feeling, I agree it's a very surreal feeling. I am so sorry about you losing your husband. Thank you for sharing this poem.

      Welcome to HubPages, I look forward to reading more, happy writing.

    • jujubees profile imageAUTHOR


      7 years ago from Rhode Island

      Thank you Lucky Cats....while it has been just over a year that I lost my husband to cancer, it sometimes just doesn't seem real. Funny this poem was written several years ago about a very close family member. I had just been going through my older writings when I came across this and decided to post it. Death .... another dimension of life....

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      7 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

      It's like this, isn't it? When left behind; there are so many emotions; so much confusion and pain...wondering why, how we can continue on. Very sad and empty feeling. It does become less intense with time but, that emptiness will never be fully filled....very melancholy. Hope you're feeling a little more "up" soon but, understand the enormity of this kind of loss....friend, lover, companion animal, family member...


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