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just to see me smile

Updated on February 16, 2011

how badly do you want

just to see me smile?

would you rather see me happy

even when I'm not?

would you have me shove the negative inside

and only show the rainbow?

take all my pains and frustrations

all my creative energy

and throw it all away

for the sake of a butterfly poem?

let me tell you something...

i am here.

i am what i am

i will not be what you want me to be

just to please you

so don't read me

if you dont like what you see

because i love what i show to the world

weather it be glitter or guts

I'm beautiful

scars an all

if my scars bother you

then you don't have to look at them

pass me by

and ill not be effected

because I'm still me

and thats all that counts.

my dear pure silence

i do not even wish for a life with no pain

what the hell is so interesting

about a billion poems

about the sun shining out of my ass.

wouldn't you rather get down to the real me?

wouldnt you rather just let me create

instead of trying to guide my pen

to the lighter side of the paper?

my dear friends

let me know

if you only want to hear positive happy fake me

ill leave

because i wont be changed

or are you OK

with me writing what i feel



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    • Nikkij504gurl profile image

      Nikki Wicked 

      7 years ago from Louisiana

      never shove the negative inside, its never healthy to keep it all in, and thats what writing is for, a way to express those feelings, any feelings, good or bad, in a healthy, productive, way. No one can be all butterflies and rainbows all the time. id get sick of that person real quick, too damn happy all the time lol. life is full of bad things, mistakes, and pain, we learn from them, we grow from them, and we write terribly amazing poems, works of art from them. never change who you are, unless your doing it for yourself. your very outspoken and dont care what others think as you should be. keep writing YOU.

    • epigramman profile image


      7 years ago

      ....the heart of a true poet, the mind of a strong independent woman, a rebel, a joker, a wise/sensitive woman and one helluva great writer!

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      well if that impresses you michael, you might want to hold on to your seat lol.

    • michael ely profile image

      michael ely 

      7 years ago from Scotland

      Hi the pink umbrella, This is the first thing i have read by you and if the rest is anything like this then i just have to read more. Great stuff.


    • BenWritings profile image


      7 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee

      i feel the same way at times when people tell me to write differently and focus on happy, positive things. my writing is who I am, and I should be able to freely express it any any form.

      I like your attitude, and your writing. Let it flow as nasty as it wants to be.

      In the end, its never good to feel nothing but pain and darkness, but they are both a large part of life, and should be expressed.

      :] nice work, i like the line about sunshine coming out of your ass ;]

    • tom hellert profile image

      tom hellert 

      7 years ago from home


      i was just joking and trying to be funny- evidently unsuccessfully- so you know Im just goofy- you did a greatjob i liked it too.


    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      if i care about myself....ill write what i damn well please! thanx tom

    • tom hellert profile image

      tom hellert 

      7 years ago from home


      Close youself up somethings are better left unsaid-

      ?Enjoy the silence

      sharing is not necessarily caring

      ONLY YOU can Avoid sharing violations ONLY YOU

      Honesty is only the best policy if you don't end up looking gay....(not that there's anything wrong with that).

      Loose lips sink ships

      Loose hips... another story *hehe*

      I am not making fun of your expose-Its just I am kinda just the opposite- and a bi ole goof-

      Your writing was pretty and pretty personal and pretty deep and pretty interestingly-pretty

      so I think- I'll justpunch out Maverick

      Later Pink

      Nice job


    • vietnamvet68 profile image


      7 years ago from New York State

      sometimes we all need to show and share our pain and sorrow with others, that's what we are here for. Just be yourself and nothing more. So here is sending some love and a hug your way.

      God Bless

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      wish i could throw myself in your arms and give you a huge hug for that one, cags. muah!

    • Cagsil profile image


      7 years ago from USA or America

      Hey Pink, I only want you the way you want to be and I'm pretty sure what you have inside yourself is a pleasure to know. Everyone has their ups and downs, and you should be no different. I would rather you write what you want to write and be who you are, instead of you trying to pretend to be something you are clearly not. Please don't listen to the negative people, because they only see that you can express yourself and release your feelings, which is something they cannot do, so it's just them trying to belittle you, because you have a power they themselves will never have. Stay as you are and I'll be glad to continue to learn everything you're willing to share. Thank you so very much. Thumbs up! :) Btw- smile whenever you want and I hope I can help you smile whenever possible. :)

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      as you can see from the video above...fakeing your real feelings is pretty scary!!! lol.


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