just to see me smile
how badly do you want
just to see me smile?
would you rather see me happy
even when I'm not?
would you have me shove the negative inside
and only show the rainbow?
take all my pains and frustrations
all my creative energy
and throw it all away
for the sake of a butterfly poem?
let me tell you something...
i am here.
i am what i am
i will not be what you want me to be
just to please you
so don't read me
if you dont like what you see
because i love what i show to the world
weather it be glitter or guts
scars an all
if my scars bother you
then you don't have to look at them
pass me by
and ill not be effected
because I'm still me
and thats all that counts.
my dear pure silence
i do not even wish for a life with no pain
what the hell is so interesting
about a billion poems
about the sun shining out of my ass.
wouldn't you rather get down to the real me?
wouldnt you rather just let me create
instead of trying to guide my pen
to the lighter side of the paper?
my dear friends
let me know
if you only want to hear positive happy fake me
because i wont be changed
or are you OK
with me writing what i feel