Memories and Dreams
Reminiscing my memories with her is just so painful. It costs me tons of tears every single day of my added existence... wondering when will my most awaited day finally come.
When will I no longer feel this pain and heartache?
For now, all I could ever do is cry... until it hurts no more.
I woke up from a dream I so long to happen. She's back to earth, full of energy and life. So there was a person who has extreme faith in her more than I do. And that faith has brought her back to life. I felt sorry all these years. I haven't done anything worthy for me to be called her sister.
When someone gives you a special thing for you to keep and hold dear, you cannot take it for granted. It might be a sign that some unfortunate event might happen in the future, so she is actually giving it to you so she will be remembered through that thing she just gave you.
Had I known this before, I might have not accepted a thing from her at all. Because now, all I can treasure are her memories, not her presence.
One night, I cried because I miss her. I really, really do. I was really sorry too. I wondered all that time how could she ever bear those hardships and sufferings of living here before. But despite all those painful memories I remembered in the midst of missing her, here I am wanting more and more to meet her. I just hope to be with her, because I love my sister.
It hurts to realize now that I was left behind, with this love so great that is capable of sacrifice.