Creativity can overwhelm you
As a person engaged in various "creative activities", I've come across numerous obstacles in this "life of creation" — the two major setbacks being: (1) the excess of ideas; and (2) the excess of people wanting to take advantage of your ability to generate ideas.
Yes, I can think of a lot of things I want to do at the same time. Yes, sometimes I get desperate with them. No, I don't want to waste my thoughts doing things for someone else for free or even at a low cost! (If I'd only learn to say it out loud without hurting people's feelings, I'd probably be making money out of my ability. But I also don't know how to say "No" without sounding pissed off.)
So, after trying to figure out how to succeed by myself and failing hard at it, I've decided to study other people's crafts, insights, tips and lists. By doing that, I hope to have a better understanding of everything I'm doing wrong as a freelance writer, proofreader, and illustrator — and, through this hub, I also hope to share helpful reflection and experiences with those who find themselves in a similar situation.
Stream of consciousness
I know for a fact that I'm extremely self-concious and I tend to criticize other people and their work a lot — a result of low self-esteem combined with a mother who thinks every criticism is a positive criticism, therefore, she criticizes everything even if she'll make a compliment on the following.
Being used to criticism, I just don't realize when I'm being rude. And my personality often comes across as rude or harsh. This is quite noticeable on my writing and, curiously, it's what most people praise about it.
In fact, a lot of famous and influential writers wrote about their own demons, about their intense, unsustainable feelings. There are numerous dark, impulsive minds in literature — but what makes their writing so compelling to us readers? That's what I want to know.
© 2014 Francine Oliveira