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im ready

Updated on August 21, 2011

Ive tattooed a gun to my soul

no more breaking and entering's

no more uninvited guests.

no more sneaking in

with your meaningless promises

im tired of closing my eyes and seeing you

im tired of hearing you in every voice

in every piece of music

and in the silence.


my silence screams of you.

in the dark

in the night

im never alone

i feel pulled down

into the hell that i made for myself

when you knocked on my soul

and i let you in

i FUCKING let you in

you walked around inside of me

with your muddy boots

leaving me dirty and angry

it wont let go of me

im addicted to your memory

its never far away from me

and closest at night

when i am alone

in the dark

you are always there

faded guitar

the smell of leather

i cant escape.

so tonight i wait for you to show

i will lie there and wait

im ready.


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    • Mamadrama profile image


      7 years ago from Upstate NY

      I have been this angry and hurt before.. this really spoke to me.. again.. amazing!!

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      thanx poetvix. i wonder if i can read these allowed anywhere. hmmm.

    • poetvix profile image


      7 years ago from Gone from Texas but still in the south. Surrounded by God's country.

      This is a most fiercely impressive piece, very descriptive of the haunting that can take our souls, the pasts that eat away at us. Awesome in the extreme!

    • seicheprey profile image


      7 years ago

      'my silence screams of you' Beautifully done again.

    • epigramman profile image


      7 years ago

      ...well this is something I known for a long long time - lol - well, ever since I first met you - and your writing over that period of time has just got better and better - yes Ms. Steph Shakespeare, you certainly are ready and have been for some time now!!!!

      lake erie time 8:30pm ontario, canada - and duly noted about your birthday, I can't wait - this should be so exciting!!!!!!

    • michael ely profile image

      michael ely 

      7 years ago from Scotland

      Good stuff the pink umbrella


    • Nikkij504gurl profile image

      Nikki Wicked 

      7 years ago from Louisiana

      i love that tattoo on that girls leg in the first photo! and I love this poem. Guard your heart and soul with a gun, but dont let the ones that will take that bullet for you, the ones that push through those walls, dont let those get shot in the process.

    • profile image


      7 years ago

      "my silence screams of you"

      What an interesting expression.

    • Jeff Berndt profile image

      Jeff Berndt 

      7 years ago from Southeast Michigan

      "...Walked around inside of me with your muddy boots..."

      What a great metaphor for a toxic relationship.


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