It's strange to feel you so close and yet still not know you.
Your presence has haunted my dreams for so long.
The kindness in your eyes.
The safety and security in being near you.
It almost drives me insane to not know where you are.
But I can feel you
But it also pains me
Because there is another with me right now
And although I know I have loved you beyond time can measure
I cannot help but be afraid of this inevitable choice.
The moment I must break either yours or his heart.
He is not meant to be mine, after all
How can I give myself to him and know that you are as much a piece of me
Like my own beating heart?
I love you, I love him.
But this ache in my heart needs to be silenced.
And only knowing you, knowing the safety, security and love you bring
Will end this all.
For now, I wait for you to find me
You were the one to say "Trust me, I will always find you"