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Series of Goodbyes(4): Black World

Updated on September 27, 2015

I wish i could talk to you right now but you're ignoring me ..
The silence that i have to take part , is so hard it's killing me..
You took everything and all that is left of me ..
I heard the song you sang for me in a restaurant and i was going to cry
If i didn't control my eyes
because it pained me
How you're not here with me
But its not about me at all,
All i think about is you and all the time we could spend at the mall
Where i would eat all the popcorn you order
And share eachother's ice cream because we're confused about what to choose from all the endless variations before the border
But inside of me and outside the fantasy, I'm locked in a prison and you are just a warder.
You think this is hard for you , but try swallowing a sea in a moment of loss of all you ever wanted , thus having a disorder
An outcome of something you lack,
something you had way back.
I cant even show you how hard this is , I'm gonna crack
I gave you all the pieces of me , there are none left to track
Go ahead keep walking away while i try to keep you with the pieces you took as a snack
For you still are a king and will always be one in my world that is filled with black
Because of the pain , the pain of not having to sit next to you in that sack
Where the space is so enclosed we could never escape our home
I know I'm still a commoner wearing fleece on my own
Wandering in search for you , i never stop to roam
Maybe there is a light at the end of it all but i will just sit here and comb
All the negative energies forcing them down and washing the black world resulting in the creation of foam
Lets clean it all away,
no matter how much it will stay
I wont give up on that one piece i have left
Lets make a good bet
And hope it be the best set.
People call this sad,
But they don't understand the magic you gave on my land,
turning the bad
For you are a spark that ignites in a black world that was once mad
And destroyed leaving its visitor to open its door with no hand
But you were the only one who didn't need a door to enter
The savior , the king, the center ..
This isn't about sorrow , its a goodbye of tomorrow .
The tomorrow we both wished for , the tomorrow we can never have if we don't rage against the war
That tears down our door
Knocks out our floor
And leaves us with no ability to soar
Beyond the harsh reality and much more..

But you were the only one who didn't need a door to enter The savior , the king, the center ...
But you were the only one who didn't need a door to enter The savior , the king, the center ...


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      Ann Carr 

      3 years ago from SW England

      You portray the depth of emotion so well. It's hard to do that well. We can feel the bewilderment and the sadness.

      Good job.


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      Robert E Smith 

      3 years ago from Rochester, New York

      Hi Leila, I particularly liked this line: "If I didn't control my eyes because it pained me. Me Me Me but it's not about me at all." I find so often that emotions force us to look at things we know in our heart we are not meant to look at as if that thing or person is ours to have in our hearts. We think that they must feel the same or think the same or something that involves us. But it is not always about us. Very good piece of writing, east to read. It did not force me to move my eyes over the words in a certain way and still it read like poetry. I loved it. Bob..

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 

      3 years ago from Riga, Latvia

      Good-byes have always been the saddest things.

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      Max Havlick 

      3 years ago from Villa Park, Illinois

      First work of yours I've seen, Agathon, because you just today elected to follow me on HP (for whatever reason I know not). The talent you show here makes it even more of a pleasure to welcome you into our HP conversations, all the more impressive if, presuming, English is not your first language. (Don't worry; few could tell! Most Americans don't do so well.)

      Other people's advice, of course, is almost worthless in times of such great loss as you express, but I think you help heal yourself by using poetry to probe the depths of such despair. It takes time, but the strong survive by finding meaningful things to do "on the other side of the loss." In addition, even these preliminary expressions provide healing words useful for many others, and if you persist, your work will improve in quality and outreach.

      Best wishes on your journey.

      Max, Chicago west suburbs, Sunday, Sept. 27, 2015, midnight

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      Ruby Jean Richert 

      3 years ago from Southern Illinois

      Saying good-bye is difficult no matter what land or place. Heartfelt your word's.

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      3 years ago from london

      A King in a world of Darkness. Still a King. Very profound and poignant words. Om Shanti!


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