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shaddow star

Updated on September 2, 2010

I shared my space tonight

There are a few spaces i go to when im feeling "that way."

so, um here it is...


i look up at you

i can feel him breathe

in almost no time at all

i start to feel

like the day never happened

you sparkle

at the moment benieth you

shining down

a shimmering speck of eternity

we speak of sins and forgiveness

and of a parallell universe.

digging deep to find the reason

that we came.

lying in the open

spilling certain truthes

knowing that theres at least one person

who gets it

and in the light of the moon

it became so clear to me

how very much

i mourn my innocence

i havnt felt like that

in a long time

when you cant feel where home is

when you unsure of how it used to feel

touching the face

of purity

momentarily takes you back

and you can taste it, just a little

once again.

discovering in the darkness

that maybe he

fells a little lost too

kind of makes you feel found.

sometimes there arent enough words

sometimes there isnt as much time as we want

sometimes one perfect moment

can heal a little

lying there, in his red shirt

and his grey hat

spilling deep secrets

having no idea

that every word spoken

is pure and beautiful

even if it is burdened

i ran away and left him there

so that when i feel alone again

i can go back

and its like he never left.


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    • BeyondMax profile image


      6 years ago from Sydney, Australia

      It's beautiful, very expressive... I just like it like that.

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      well...! thank you very much, you got me on both ends!

    • BenWritings profile image


      7 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee

      Well, until now, I hadn't noticed you

      Glad I fell on your page

      Another interesting and talented writer, oh and you just happen to be really gorgeous ;]

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      You know, slingobay, i dont think i really read this when you left it. Wouldnt trade it for sainthood, huh? Me neither. Theres something beautiful about sex, even when its naughty ;) !!!

    • sligobay profile image


      8 years ago from east of the equator

      Life is like a box of chocolates, .... after you've eaten one, the box is never full again, but you've enjoyed a new and delicious flavor. Innocence is never LOST... it is replaced by knowledge and experience. Be grateful for 19 years of naivity and do not grieve the loss of anything. Rather, rejoice and welcome the knowledge and experience and the "chocolate" or forbidden fruit. Who says that sexual relations are not also innocent- some religious zealot, maybe? Remember who wrapped sex and desire in sin and guilt - the people who weren't gettin any, that's who! Who is culpable for love? Me- guilty as charged, and I wouldn't trade it for sainthood. Cheers.

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      8 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      Tell me about it. I didnt really lose mine until i was 19 or 20. And yo uknow what? Im glad. Because it is precious. After that, it kind of looses its luster.

    • Faybe Bay profile image

      Faye Constantino 

      8 years ago from Florida

      This was beautiful, and yes, that's what I am missing too, my innocence. I look at the children, and there it is, they have it, and I dread the day they lose it... I pray someone will be there for them when they realize the innocence was precious, but they only realize how precious after it's gone.

    • Cagsil profile image


      8 years ago from USA or America

      Hey Pink, another interesting read. And, that's all I'm going to say. ;) :) I liked it enough to voted it up though. :)

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      8 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      innocence is that moment just before change. that little moment so small seeming like a tiny eternity...thats where i want to be.

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      8 years ago

      I have learned innocence is not what it's cracked up to be, it's nice when you have it, but confining. I am liberated from it now. I do love babies, small children and puppies cute.

    • epigramman profile image


      8 years ago

      ...yes you're right - spontaneity in the form of the written word is a very satisfying enterprise indeed - I write very quickly after the first kick start - and free association and free thinking can be very inspired.

      Good for you for exploring other avenues and getting in touch with your inner psyche ....

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      8 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      epigramman- i like this one, and the last one. I love when it pours out and you love it on the first shot, dont you? .....and thank you.

    • epigramman profile image


      8 years ago

      ....and only in a parallel universe could they find someone as special as you ........


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