It seems as though there is no peace
Your constant hunger has broken me
Just when i feel all is well
you shatter my heart and put me through hell
Theres nothing more that i can do
To rationalize what youve put me through
and even though i have this strain
Im worried about you being in pain
Why did you do what you did...
What about everything that you said?
You assured me that things were going to settle
But still you resisted, and contunued to meddle
And now im here, all alone
Because without you, it just doesn't feel like home.
I think about you day and night
Praying that your at least alright
In a cell, locked up tight
this isnt my life....this isnt my life
Whats to happen....to become of you
all of those words you swore were true
amounted to nothing, but lies and decete
So im wondering now, if youll ever be free.
Your initial decision
Turned into a drive
To keep on using
Until your no longer alive
Away from you, i feel so fucking lost
I see you try to reach out, for your hand only to frost.
Because i cant return a holding hand
what youve done...well, i hope you understand
Its going to take time, and alot of strength
For me to hold you like i want again.
I cry and i cry, but that solves nothing
up all night, wondering if i can do something
No, this road is yours, i tried to stop you
only to be silenced, and now ive lost you
These choices were yours,
you made them alone
So thats just where you are
i miss you so.
Angry and sad
i have not a clue
whats going to happen
to me, or to you
Im begging you, stop
take a look at your life
and see thay maybe
i could have been your wife
we could have laughed, mowed the grass, watched t.v.
but your in a cell now, and not next to me.
Ill never forgive you for what you have done
Choosing yourself over me and your son.
Maybe youll see that this isnt working
but i doubt it, so ill just continue on hurting.
His birthday is comming
and where will you be
i hope you dont expect
any visits from me.
Im sorry your hurting
but ive been hurting too
and you havnt even noticed
So i cannot comfort you.
I love you, my sweetheart
But youve been so wrong
My God keep you safe
But for now, so long.