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terror heart

Updated on April 11, 2012

the terror felt in my being

when your love sweeps over me

is magnified

in your void.

the dread in my soul

when i know you will not be here

tonight

consumes my every moment

with panic.

i breathe you

and your life force fuels me

keeps me from rocking

rocking

ticking and tocking

back and forth

on the floor.

i streatch out

as if dying

gasping for you

reaching into everything

and pulling out nothing

but emptiness.

i feel you surround me

while simultaneously

feeling nothing

i pine

and am a slave

to your lips

to your words

burning and yearning

for you.

just once more

to take you in

oasis.

i feel ridiculous...childish...

for wanting your touch

as badly as i do now.

i feel as though my desires

are unattractive

and that i should hide them

but the fear that i feel

the loss

the pain

the abandonment

keeps me from remembering

what its like to care

writhing and reeling

nightmares and dreams

breathing without breathing

every feeling i ever feared id ever have

without you.





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    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      6 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      at least someone does.

    • Secret lies profile image

      Secret lies 

      6 years ago from Redlands California

      So full the pain is screaming out the very name in which you so desire. Beautiful Jaded, I feel the whimper as I try to breathe even for just a moment.

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      bri36 

      6 years ago

      Interesting poem

      real and full of power

      It's always a fun ride when I visit here")Yes I voted^

    • Nikkij504gurl profile image

      Nikki Wicked 

      6 years ago from Louisiana

      Deep and emotional words here. I remember a time when I felt like this...but the guy wasnt coming back for me. Loneliness and missing someone you love, feeling lost and helpless without them...its hard but you can make it girl! He will be back in no time.

    • Alana Warren profile image

      Alana Warren 

      6 years ago from Derby

      Powerful and Emotive! Truly beautiful.

    • Minnetonka Twin profile image

      Linda Rogers 

      6 years ago from Minnesota

      Oh wow, I love it! So much emotion dripping from your poetic words.

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