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That Wasn't Love

Updated on May 30, 2019
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A hopeless romantic lass away from home trying to find herself, her purpose and a way to find her way back home...

When you were so blinded and you thought that was love, but it wasn't love at all, it was just an illusion after all...

You are beautiful, young and playful

You're full of fun, full of life, full of everything

Yet you are so fickle, so complex and so hard to read

And for the record you're the most fickle minded person I've ever known


You love challenges, Oh yes you do!

You like to test what you can do and how far you can go

But let me tell you what you can do

I will tell you how far you can go


You can make me think about you all the time

You make me keep wanting you

You make me keep coming back for more

You can make me believe to something that's impossible


You can make me think irrationally

You make me see things differently

You make me lose myself

You make me out of control, out of my comfort zone, out of my mind...


You can turn things around in just one flip of your hand

You can put a smile on my face in just one text from you

You can make me laugh to your sarcastic sense of humor

You make me happy in a second and make me cry after a minute


You make me do things I wont normally do

You make me long for you

You make me care so much

You make me crave for you

You make me love you


Those are the things that you can do...

And here's how far you can go


At first you're just in my head

Then you came to my senses

And now you're here... Inside my heart.

See how you've gone so far?


You've been here for quite some time

I'm not sure how long you're gonna stay

I don't know how long I will let you stay either

Why? Because you're definitely here in my heart

But I was never there in yours'


I tried so hard

I did everything

I pushed myself to the limit just to have a space in there

But there are things you can't really force

Especially love...

But you know what? I wanna know how it feels to be loved by you

Though i sometimes think if you're capable of loving someone wholeheartedly..


I wanna be the one to be by your side all the time

I wanna be the one you turn to if you need help

I wanna be the one to cheer you up when you're down

I wanna be your source of strength when you're feeling weak

I wanna take care of you

I wanna shower you with my love

There are so many things I want to do

But should i really have to do those, knowing that you don't feel the same way?

The Bible says "Love never fails", so if the other person failed to reciprocate your love, does it mean what you felt wasn't love?

I would like to think not. I would like think that love always wins, that no matter what was the outcome of it all, we have got be grateful that we have experienced to love. As most learnings in life comes from these experiences in life.

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    • cathchu profile imageAUTHOR

      Catherine Chua 

      10 months ago from UAE

      Hi Dashing scorpio! I respect your insight on this.. I guess we have to accept that some love are unrequited..

    • dashingscorpio profile image

      dashingscorpio 

      10 months ago from Chicago

      Just because the love wasn't mutual doesn't mean the person who was (in love) didn't really love that other person.

      "Sometimes it's not the butterflies that tell you you're in love. It's the pain." - Anonymous

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