The Power of Writing Is In The Experience
What A Journey We Have Chosen
I overwhelm myself constantly with learning to write. Not to brag, but I've been a good enough writer for a long time. I say it that way, because I doubted myself for way to long. It is time to take ownership of what I believe I am to do with my life. Not an easy thing to admit. Bold, proud, brazen. A little cocky. No, no, that isn't me, but some voice, in my head or real, was accusing me of that very thing. So I would find something else to do. Something more acceptable. Until now.
It is the work of it, of anything I hate. The mundane spell checking and word count and copies made and rewrites and then the out into cyber space or snail mail for an eternity of days.
Slowly I've discovered little ways to make this secretarial nightmare not such a bore and get paid for it. Albeit might not of taken so long if I would of just sat down to make the folders and organize my work for writing.
I needed to see it in faster action. A quicker pay off so to speak. So that's what flows behind all the get rich quick schemes.
These bypasses to the real dreams make up for quick cash and candy but they leave us hungering for more, never satisfied fully.
Laughter Is The Best Medicine
And that, you have to admit, is pretty funny. Remember to read comics. It is fun to be a part of this greater whole and to not be afraid to spend money on it. As I give, I get. I gave to them my time and money, these writers I spoke with gave me their time and writing knowledge. I have made contacts. One knows the business part of it extremely well.
Deborah will be a good example when I need that. Her putting us into groups to write out plots for stories. I am still so in to just taking notes.
This is what I want and need. A place here close where we can meet unafraid to write and lead each other on to success.
Get out of a recovering community then? Or this is where it is most needed?
Where my success is? I cannot be angry at myself or others for not making the website my true dream. I can no longer let it stop me from creating that again now. I still don't know how. No time for it.
Make time. I like it here.
But I have learned to laugh, pick myself back up, dust myself off and begin again, this writing career my head and heart hold so dear.
I am learning to be good to my loved ones and maintain healthy relationships.
I am better kept in balance going to all these nature spots. Holding myself accountable comes up again. I want the indulgence of going to writers workshops. Where will the money I need come from but my writing?
And where else, less expensive can I learn how to set up these online every season, things for me and my friends, new ventures of my writing world?
Thank you for constantly handing me new pieces to fit into my life. Thank you for helping me find a way to know when and how t assimilate or discard the ones I no long need for your gift of purpose.
I am now clear to just work for the money to feed my writing dream.
When I don't have the ability to control the powers you've gifted me, I trust you more to take my hand and pull me back down to earth. I wouldn't be human if I didn't fail. And I kind of like being human, now.
"To understand the heart and mind of a person, look not at what he has already achieved, but at what he aspires to." Kahlil Gibran
Have Fun and Just Do It!
The meat of writing for money is keeping track of word count, spell checking, making it understandable to my reading community.
FIrst of all, trusting I had one, I've created one with my blogit entries. 100 may not be big to you, but it is huge to me.
It is my beginning to let anyone read what I have to say.
It's committing that I'll write about a certain thing, like for the writing class I'm taking. I have been signaled to take time out and sort things through.
Going to the writers workshop taught me more of what i need to do. So I'm going through my stories now. I've come up with a plan. This week I will get 5 sent out, maybe 10. But I will follow through with all the work I need to do.
Admire the secretary file clerk, receptionist and all the other work related skills, typist, I learned to become this magnificent writer I am today.
I must brag on myself, no one else will. What a bunch of crock. Writing quality material, that others like to read, has brought some wonderful comments and friends. We have a new horizon. A better vision of things, pictures and stories of our world at large.
Thank you! It is not a sin to say this is where I begin, what I believe and yeah, I want you to and deserve to be paid for this page. Who is this monster voice that keeps popping onto this page?
"Be who you are and say what you mean because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." Dr. Seuss
Writing Power, Move Around, Come Home Again
Suck it up, suck it in? We have to a little bit, we have to conform until we learn to dot our I's and cross our t's so to speak.
Such encouraging writers before us have asked us not sell ourselves short anymore.
Ironically for now that means to get better at saving money to go do these places in nature and asking more for what I need from the workshops.
We have to no longer care as much what others think of us and our beliefs. We are trying to find ways to build money and a cabin in the woods for writing and our families and workshops. We can when we become quiet enough and follow the drafts and blueprints the others have laid out before us.
Someplace in between? Somewhere shared? We've got too much of a traveling dream and don't want the responsibility of being tied down to one place. So we say, yet here we are, doing most of our writing and finding the power of our true selves right around here.
It Is Good To Be Heard
Cyber hugs may not be as good as physical ones,.......But they are lots of fun. For the healing, for the laughter, for the proof that we are not alone, really, with our way of thinking.
Even when we stand alone out in nature with the breeze blowing through us and the trees and see not another human being we know they too have come to this same place in nature for their own private ritual.
Words that are written from that place are worth perfecting.
"We need 4 hugs a day for survival. We need 8 hugs a day for maintenance. We need 12 hugs a day for growth." ~ Virginia Satir ~
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© 2012 MJ Martin aka Ruby H Rose