Selling my Beautiful Home
The time has come
I just listed my beautiful Independence, Kansas home for sale. It has been on my mind for quite a while but the final decision to do this happened about 2 months ago. After considering my options, it had become evident that I must leave this home and return to the west coast; to my home in Napa, California. This hasn't been an easy decision.
There are so many wonderful attributes to this area in the Heartland of America. Beautiful vistas, rolling hills, huge, open sky which is almost always filled with amazing clouds, amazing sun rises and sunsets and incredible lightning storms. The pace here in America's prairie is a little slower, a little gentler and a little more considerate. People are friendly, commerce is welcoming and smiles are abundant.
I bought this home in the fall of 2008. I had coveted this lovely historical house for months, having rushed to the seller's agent with money in hand to make a viable offer the first time it was available, only to have the sellers decide not to sell the very morning my appointment to purchase was scheduled. I was vey disappointed but kept in mind that, more than likely and typically the case, this beauty would emerge on the market again before a year had passed. True to a tee, my agent called one morning to tell me the home was for sale again. I rushed into the office with my offer. Long story short, my offer was accepted and I became the proud owner of a beautiful 1875 - 3 story home.
Over the period of a year, my friend and partner, Al, and I worked on this home. Changing the color scheme, adding doors, knocking out walls which had been recently installed by former owners purposely covering over passage ways between rooms, creating a small entertainment area and bar out of the laundry room (moving that to the huge basement), opening windows which had been painted shut, and more...we transformed a good looking home into a beautiful grand Victorian. We lifted contemoprary carpet to expose beautiful vertical wood flooring, replaced a faux wood floor in an upstairs bathroom with 3/4" reclaimed 11" barnboard. The result turned out beautifully.
It has been a labor of love; particularly when I was the winning bidder for an antique oak mantle with beveled mirror and ornate decorative carving. This replaced the '70's fireplace surround which had been installed, taking the feel and look of the living room back to it's obvious, original appearance.
Now, it has come time to part with this fine home and walk away form all the work we've done.
I've always had a difficult time leaving people, places and things. To say that I am a person who easily becomes attached to ... just about anything...would be the understatement of the decade. I attribute lifelike qualities to all things I value; making it extremely hard to leave valued parts of my life behind..
And, I feel like this is my baby; a creation of Al's and my imaginations. So much love and thought went into recreating the glory of this home. We do well working together on projects.
I've been working nonstop for the last two months in preparation for the market. Shining the glorious grand staircase and wood floors, filling in areas where crown moulding had gaps or little areas in need of attention, fine tuning everything. While doing these things, I thought; "why didn't I take the time to do this finish work before?" As is probably typical, I 'lived with' many imperfections which became glaringly obvious when I decided to sell my home...things which weren't that big a deal until i imagined others walking through with "x=ray" vision and skepticism. So, it's been a whirlwind of activity trying to accomplish so much before the spring arrives, bringing the perfect weather for open houses and walk in visitors.
This is very hard. I keep on going back and forth, back and forth, trying to contrive ways in which I can continue to handle this and all the other responsibilities I have, somehow, burried myself under. Too much! Still, I look around, thinking, "well, I could go on for another year, I have ways to keep this home and.....and....and..." No. This is madness.
So, each day that passes, I am allowing myself to absorb the truth: this IS way too much for a single woman to deal with. At least, this single woman. I am becoming lost in all the urgency and monetary outflow...all the need, all the demands. No! Now is the time to start "downsizing," begin to separate from the things that own me. If not now, when?
I rest assured that whoever buys this home will love it and appreciate how beautiful it is. A century + in age, this fine lady has withstood time and tide and come through with grandeur and pride. I can, at least, be happy that my friend and I contributed to her wellbeing and longivity.