Another Place Of Existence . A Truth In My Mind.
Created Wednesday, May 25, 2011
My subject has been approached before many times, but because of the great impact the event has had on my life, I am going into more details if I can .
Wherever this place is. Wherever I was, was as real to me as anything I would normally experience in what we call our real world.
I know in my heart I would want to experience the place again even though I suspect with all my being that it may have been a spirit world. Everything I am talking about relates to the truth as best I could believe it to be.
This awakening occurred more than twelve years ago while I was in the process of administering my mother CPR in an effort to bring life back into her body . With all my being, and essence I wanted her to survive. Maybe mom was lifeless, or perhaps not. Her body appeared to be totally limp. Her arms fell limp to her sides, and her chin lowered to her upper chest. I was a commissioned deputy sheriff , and enforcement officer, and I know in my heart I did not imagine what I experienced, which I believed would be the presence of God into my existence.
To be honest, by nature I was not searching for love, but maybe I was the sort of person that needed it. I thought I was the kind of man that could logically understand anything that would confront me.
I know the difference between a dream , or a fantasy, and what appears to be reality. Let this be known to be perfectly clear. My awareness was put into another state of being, or presence.
As I am thinking now, I truly believed I was thinking normally at that time. I asked for help from God. I totally believe that under the circumstances , that it was absolutely normal for me to reach out for God's help.
My mother was not living . I reached out for what you may even think would be impossible, in such a situations. Mom may have been the security in my life. Why not ask for the help of God.
In that moment with my non living mother, I thought about my hope of God coming to help me. I really needed help, but I feared truly that the likely hood of her returning to life would be very unlikely. She seemed non living to me. I was by all definitions a Christian that simply never went to church unless it was Christmas. Why would God come to visit me of all people ? I felt like I would never experience Heaven, and that I would never be worthy of Heaven because of bitterness in my heart , over our crippled daughter.
I have no recollection of how much time went by when I was put into another state of awareness in a different place.
I felt loved there. I really, and truly felt that love was present , and that was a wonderful thing to feel because I thought God was like a judge.
I am using leaps, and bounds here. Is God kind hearted ? Would a supreme being be tender hearted ? I experienced something kind, and caring, and I must make this clear because this was as real to me as reality .
All I can say is that my emotions felt real. It was like the place was made of love. Maybe Heaven is made of love.
In my mind at that moment I really wished the entire world could have been with me in my mind, and with me to experience God , and whatever it was that was fantastic.
I am not just saying all this stuff. I can not prove that what I experienced was real. I can not make anyone believe anything I say. Maybe I felt convinced in my heart that my mother would be all right.
I wanted the world from that point on to know that God is real, and that people should never hurt, or kill one another. If only the world could have been with me I would have been very happy because the world would have awakened to a better reality.
I saw life return into my mother's dead body. I realized that there were mysteries I would never understand.
That moment changed me in ways that I will never understand because I felt I experienced a kind of paradise .