To Our Lord The Father, And Maker Of All Our Souls ..
I love my wife Joann, and Becky, and all my dear friends , and our father in Heaven. Joann was suffering from pain in her hip, right leg, and back.
Becky is very beautiful, and is happy around us, with Sweet Pea on her lap. The cat follows Becky. and rides with Becky, on Becky's wheelchairs .
While Joann was sleeping, I used my new found strength too bring Becky in our living room which is near our kitchen.
I maneuvered Becky's motorized wheelchair too a close position near Becky. I positioned Becky's manual wheelchair which had Becky sitting in it, close to her motorized wheelchair.
After detaching Becky's safety strap I asked Becky to raise her arms if she could. Her right arm was a little difficult for her to raise, so I carefully raised it myself. I lifted Becky by placing my arms in a secure fashion under her arms in order to carefully raise her body up to a standing position. In my words I asked our Lord to give me strength to move, and too pivot Becky's body , and legs properly , and her feet around in her standing position, in order to lift her safely onto her motorized wheelchair.
That one lift to her seat is my hardest lift, and a push of her body to a proper sitting position are my most challenging efforts that were accomplished.
Joann has lifted Becky many times more than I. We use to carry Becky down our hall, actually with Joann having most of the strength. I can tell you now that Joann has a will that can not be broken. A nearly four hundred pound man with large muscles once lifted, and carried Becky up to a second floor camp house for us. When the man sat Becky down, he was breathing hard for oxygen. We thanked him for his good work.
This is not a joke. Joann has worked as hard as a battalion of marines. Not one man on our planet could ever do what Joann has done , for Becky. It is simply because women, and mothers can do what lions do, and because of their protective instincts ingrained in them since God's creation of humanity.
All I can do as a man is too do my very best in order to try to help Joann a little. I could never do what she has done , but I never give up either. Becky, and Joann have always inspired me to try to be better than I am. Inspiration is what it takes to do what is necessary in life. Love, and God are a big help too.
My lower back is in pain, but I am happy that Joann is sleeping in her bed, and resting well. As a father, and husband it is my duty to do my best too comfort my wife, and child, or daughter to the best of my ability. It is not simply a duty, but my determination because of my love for them.
I do not eat unless I know that my wife, and daughter have first choices to whatever is on our table, because of the glory of God, the father of Heaven, and Earth, and creator of our universe.
I always pray for everyone with all my heart. I have become closer to our all mighty Lord in Heaven. I have seen Heaven, and Hell. Heaven is a beautiful white place that is made of endless love that makes you feel like a loved child in a mother's arms.
God's love for humanity exists because I felt it in my heart when he came to help me, when my mother was deceased in my arms. I pleaded for our Lord's help, and for him to bring her back to life, and he did . My CPR worked because of our Lord. He saved my mother's life. I saw Heaven, and I cried over it's magnificence, and for all souls that need it. There was enough love in God, and in all surroundings around him, to fill the universe a trillion times. I could feel God's love for me, and because of that, I was in wonderful peace I realized that he was very intelligent. God has patience in what God does. I feel that he is about love, and of course many other intellectual matters.
I know that our Lord loves us all very much . We are all his children no matter what we do. Talk to your Lord, and thank him when he helps you.
I use the word "he' in reference to our Lord, but I truly do not know what God looks like. I have not seen his physical presence in my mind. If God is eternal I can only wonder what our Lord would look like. I do not need to see our Lord because of my faith, and love for his entity.
I believe I saw hell. I saw it when I nearly died. There was darkness, and smoke turning like infinite barrels in black darkness . I saw myself dead, face down in a coffin because of some foolish, meaningless God forbidden action, or war. There was nothing to feel in hell's void. There was no love, and endless emptiness . Death was meaningless, and meant nothing in hell. It was like I saw it from and entrance door . I feared what it could have done to me.
For the first time in my life I begged our Lord for my life. I believe I died, and I was going straight to hell. . I said it in my mind, in and ICU, with heart machines, and with paddles to shock my dying heart , In my mind,, and in my silent body, I yelled, " Dear God please help me to live. Please help me Dear Christ in Heaven ."
Shortly after, I opened my eyes, and It was obvious that God wanted me to be a better man, so now I try even harder to do what our Lord wants from me."
Joann, and Becky are by the kitchen table. I think I will go , and see what their doing. Maybe I will cook some food for them .God Bless You, and all souls on our earth.