Always Taking One Day At A Time.
Friday, January 13, 2012
Not everything I write is perfect. Not everything I say will be printed, but usually what I say is likely true to the heart when I am talking about our lives.
I wrote my one book for a purpose. I never wanted my wife, and child to leave this earth without the literary world knowing they existed . There is always something we can leave to help future generations, psychologists, doctors , inventors, or for even researchers, and scientists.
I never wanted my little girl to be born unable to use her legs. It has been very hard on us to do all that must be done , and to do them as we think about how wonderful it would be if she could only stand up.
I am older, and my eyes are tired as I still look at my daughter as she grows older by the years. I have so much to say, but I must always be careful what I say in this corny world because there always seems to be some political stupidity that might hold me back, because no matter where you live, life seems to demand a portion of so called political correctness.
Every time I have ever seen my wife lift Becky it is like my heart is being torn from inside of my saddened guts.
Every day, every night for the last thirty three years I have watched my wife lift our daughter Becky. I am not always able to help because I am only a man of flesh, and bones. Mothers are much strongrer than any living thing I have ever seen. I wish God will allow me to live long enough so that Becky , or Joann would have my help for as long as I live on this earth.
Joann wraps her arms around Becky's shoulders, and upper chest, and pulls her forward, and slightly upward so that she can place Becky on her bed. Becky's right hand has never been able to be used. It was as if Becky was born with a stroke.
I pray a lot for our winter not to be too cold because if ever our electric fails, I would have to leave our animals behind while we seek shelter. My brother lives about sixty miles away. It would take us a while to get Becky into our car in freezing conditions.I pray that snow will not destroy damage power lines. If we can get threw January, and February with very little snow ,our five electric heaters we will be fine. I hope everything remains O.K.
Usually in the south, we rarely ever have snow, but the last two winters had a few days of it, and electric went out for a while. The natural gas would have been a great back up emergency energy source, but a bunch of worthless greedy money hungry two bit plumbers did not come to work on our gas line. They could not wait to be paid two hundred dollars one month, and two hundred dollars another month. So I went out , and bought electric heaters, and told them I would never call them again, and I would never recommend them to anyone.
I look forward to spring time. I plan to save a lot of money this year. Somehow I will get everything working like I would like it too this year.
I would also like to figure out how I could help a friend with a not so good background get a good job. He needs a good job. He has a one year old little girl, and has had some bad luck. His fiance, and little girl are in another state. It is a sad situation. He got into some trouble. He impulsively made a foolish mistake. A drunk guy bumped into him, in a city. He punched the guy one time, and now he has a felony record for second degree battery. That put him in jail, and he lost his job, and his girl friend could not pay their aparment rent. One thing snowballed into another, and now the young man has a felony record to haunt him forever. It is hard enough to get a good job with a decent record. Responsible men learn to take balony for the sake of their families.
A lot of times in life I have wished I could have Sunday punched my way out of some bad situations, but fathers, and husbands often have to learn how to swallow a lot of stuff in life. This is why stress, anxiety, and frustrated guys were invented. It is a plain old luxury to be able to visit fist city to solve man to man problems. Today there are no men left in the world. Today the only people who are allowed to stand up for themselves are Judges, cops, lawyers, jailers, or if your rich you can buy yourself proper council. There is no such things as old time Western justice like there was in Tombstone Arizona in these modern times. I am not saying that men should go round punching one another out to solve all their problems, but young men need a little flexibility. Whatever happened to warnings. When I was a police officer I did not arrest every kid that got into trouble. If your going to arrest every kid that gets into trouble, you need more jails, a lot more of them.
Whatever happened to good old second chances. The young man is a good kid. He ought to have his family back. But I can not do anything about it.
I am going to see if I can find him some free legal help. You do not beat the system, you join it, or become part of it to survive.
Years ago when I was a deputy, two teenage boys were shooting at each other for some stupid reason. I told them to toss me their hand guns, and they did. I told them, " Boys ! wait until I call your parents. They are going to tear up your behinds but good."
I did not put them in jail. I sat them down and gave them a good talking too. I said, " Do you want to go to jail ? Do you know what jail is like ? Do you know what real meanness is ?
Their parents came. There must have been a hundred trucks, and cars everywhere. Somebody said I got shot, but I did not. It was a total misunderstanding . Police sergeant said , " Are you letting them go ? " I said, " Yes I guess I am. I am not going to see these kids blow their future to hell because they played with guns. I am going to put them into their parents custody so they will both get punished. When their parents finish with them , they will never do anything wrong again. There are too many kids in jail, and when they get out they never get jobs as long as they live, and they are going right back in jail again because of a failed system."
Sergeant said, " Lee you do not make the rules. You enforce them."
I said, " I am a volunteer. No body pays me for putting my life on the line but I do it ."
" I want these two boys to go home without criminal records. There parents will straighten them out ."
God Bless Everyone.