How I Got "Auf'd" From Project Runway Without Designing Anything!
I'm The First Gay To Be Auf'd From Project Runway Without Designing Anything - Don't Get Me Started!
I was delighted last year when I was voted by America as the Ultimate Fan Blogger for Project Runway Season 3 so when I emailed my editor asking if they could use my services again this year and he said they could, naturally I was delighted. Delighted because I've watched every season of the show and while I have doubts I'm the "ultimate fan" (based on comments written in to me last year when my blogs appeared on bravotv.com) there was a certain status in being even a minor part of a major show like Runway. And so for two weeks I faithfully sent in my blogs and my editor assured me that they were just having technical difficulties getting my blog on their site. Well, last Wednesday morning I received an email from my editor stating that people higher up in Bravoland decided that they needed, "an industry insider" to write the blog this year and not someone from the outside, basically meaning me. I'm the first gay to be auf'd from Project Runway without designing anything - Don't Get Me Started!
I know, I know, for those of us who watch the show the only thing running through my mind too was Heidi saying, "In fashion, one day you're in and the next day you're out." And so it was my day to be out. I wasn't angry with my editor (as I have been on the outside of the inside of the show business industry for most of my life and completely understand how this stuff happens the way that it does) however I have to say that I was disappointed. How could I not be, right? After all, I had announced it on my website and sent out the massive email all ready.
I think the thing that what got me was (me being the overachiever I've always been) is that I have never been fired from anything. I have always worked so hard to do my best and it for the most part has paid off. So I think at the heart of all of my feelings about being auf'd it's more about my ego (which isn't almost everything we do attached to our ego in some way or another?) and not really about Project Runway at all. And while I'd like to say that I went into a deeply contemplative state, meditated and burned incense to see my way to the window that surely must have opened due to this door closing, I can't lie. I walked around for a few days licking my wounds and cursing the entire show and anyone every associated with it. (Thus the picture of me strangling the Tim Gunn bobble head they sent me last year as one of my prizes which Tim Gunn signed, "Scott, Carry On! Tim")
But like any set back in life, you really do have to choose how you're going to move forward and stop looking backward (mostly because it usually makes you trip because you're not looking where you're going and then you really look like an ass). I feel worse for my friends who have always introduced me as "the blogger from Project Runway" and who will now have to introduce me just as "Scott" but they'll get over it like I have too. And for those of you who are reading this thinking that there are more important things to be upset about such as world hunger, the spread of AIDS or America being the richest country in the world that now has thousands of homes in foreclosure and less people with any sort of health care I agree with you in my head but in my heart I can't help it that I'm bummed about this situation because this is what affects me.
Fear not, as Tim Gunn suggests, I will "Carry On" and I will continue to write the blogs for the show this season and post them on the site. It's actually nice not to have my writing edited as it was for last season. So for those of you who watch and love Runway like me but don't want an "industry insider's" opinion, visit the Runway Season 4 page of Some Like It Scott to read the latest blog on the show. http://www.somelikeitscott.com/somelikerunway4.html And like most things in my life, this will make great material for me for weeks (and possibly years to come) as I do have a distinction no one else has as I'm the first gay to be auf'd from Project Runway without designing anything - Don't Get Me Started!
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