Unemployment Checks Stopped ! ?
You put the cuffs on !
Free at last! Free at last! Thank God Almighty, I am free at last!
Yes, I did say this when my UC Checks stopped, but certainly not right away. It took me a few hours to get a hold of myself. I am an American that is raised on government, thinking I'm free, like you.
I felt warm fast, tension gathered and I felt a head-ache creep in, when it was confirmed. The guy at the UC Office had his words down pat, sounded recorded, "when you get other employment you will have more funds available." ...."Well that's a 'catch-22' dude, I almost said. I have EU to help find a job, but need a job to have more UC available!
But it's not that I didn't know the checks had to end sometime. And it's not that I was sitting on my ass in front of an 'entertainment-fix' for these two years, and not planning for what I was to do when the 'gov's umbilical cord' is severed. But it was like death; ya know it's gonna come, it's just so damn surprising. That's where the similarities end.
Death has more of a heart than loosing your benefits. With death there's nothing after. Whoosh, you're back in the spiritual void of nothing-ness. But when the coveted checks stop, you're still living, and you must go on, and roll with the bills. Or ya don't. You can join death, suicide is a valid answer, but it is the grand cop-out, no mater how nobal they try to make it, or how illegal they paint it. Don't think I haven't thought of it. And though it will ease the burden quickly, the burden will remain back here for your loved-ones to work out, now. Which isn't exactly fare. And, you just showed your family that you didn't have the balls to carry on. You wouldn't want your loved-ones to cop-out like you did, now do ya?
Yep, I had two years of planning, but ya know, looking back, I did slack off at times. I'm not proud of it, but that comes only from 'the knowing that the checks will be in your account, like clockwork.' To think of it, that's an awful thing to tell yourself, "I can now do 'nothing' and get paid for it." .....I was there like, how much did I just say I was worth, to myself?
I have a friend, Sing, from Taiwan who owns a 'Chinese Restaurant' here in Lancaster. We have talked numerous times about people's work ethic versus where their from. He has said he would never hire Chinese from the mainland. Because, being communist these people won't work if they don't have to. He said they always slack off, and to keep them working their full shift he will always have to tell them to get back to work. He also said allot of them will steal from him. He called it, 'growing another arm.'
That's what this "help" breeds, friends and countryman, needing more of this kind of "help." The opiate of big-brother. Always depending on someone else, big gov., will take you further and further away from yourself and your God given talents and ideas. That's the worst part of government help / fix, it makes you think that you can't do 'It' without it. You get all 'sucked-up' in the self pity. It is a colossal addiction. You screw the most important person you have, You. You've shit on yourself. You need governmental help because you were told to tell yourself you do, and you listened.
My Titanic of a government with it's 'Titanic Arrogance' has sunk a long time ago, I realize that. It certainly wasn't a shock that most sheeple would feel. I felt like I was being paid in counterfeit money, anyway. Almost a whore.
"Most of the shadows in this life are caused by standing in ones own sunshine." -Emerson
Chat with my Daughter:
Sarah - It's so hard living from pay-check to pay-check.
Me - Do you still have your flute?
Sarah - Uh, yea, somewhere, why?
Me - Have you played it lately?
Sarah - No
Me - Why not? You liked it and did a good job.
Sarah - I liked it, but I don't have 'Band' any more, Dad. Not since high school. I'm 22 years old now.
Me - How many nice restaurants are there, or people getting married?
Sarah - Oh I don't know. Why?
Me - Take a guess at it. Pretty many or so?
Sarah - I guess so. Why?
Me - Well, after you practice up and feel more confident and learn to play more popular songs, go to them and tell them your situation, (pay-check to pay-check) and ask if they would like you to play in their restaurant. You could tell them they wouldn't have to pay you. You would do great on tips alone. You could fill the place for them. There's no end to it. People getting married would use you. Damn girl, what do you think?
Sarah - Well, I gotta go get ready for work now. See ya. Love ya.