Embarrassed. I was supposed to get a PhD, become a professor, publish scholarly articles, and teach. My family and old school chums are mostly scientists and/or educators. Among such company, it feels like a failure to be making money on the Internet writing less-than-scholarly articles, commercializing my writing with ads and commissions. Some of my most successful pages are written about-- horrors! video games! It took me four years of publishing online articles as a break from academia before I realized that I was moderately successful at it, enjoyed it, and it was permissible for me to do it for a living, not just as a hobby. I'm still ashamed to show my face to former classmates, until I'm making a respectable income as opposed to below minimum wage.