Since when did my American values make me into a border-line terrorist? America used to be the Home of the Free and Land of the Brave. Now it's the playground of the greedy and corrupt. Where was I when our values were changing?
I always thought I was raised with good values. I love baseball, Mom and apple pie. As far as I knew, most of the white middle-class held these same values. Why then, do I feel more and more an outcast?
It's true that I did not get TV for about 10 years. I decided I could not deal with the cable companies in New Mexico, and cut off service. We lived for years without any TV. Personally, I never missed it. Maybe this is the reason I think different...I missed 10 years of learning how the world turned.
I also missed some 12 years of coastal living. I think the middle of our country is more stable, while the coasts are more static. I grew up to static, then moved to stable. To me, it was as if I moved 20 years into the past. Then I grew used to it...
I'll admit it. I do not have a problem with people owning weapons. I do not have a problem with people spanking their children. I have owned guns in the past and I plan to own guns again in the future. Does this mean I am some sort of criminal!? Do you want to know more? Let me whisper in your ear. I spanked my children when they misbehaved. Does this mean I am a child abuser?
I guess the key is love. Love will lead you to self-control.
I love America...I love Americans...I just wish I could say the same of the monstrosity our government has become. Since when did the government know so much better than I what is good for me?
I was raised on the "American Dream". (You know that will be how we see it in the future...in quotes...like a false idol.) Work hard and live right and you will get ahead. The dream was every American's property. We all had a chance. I watched this dream swell, rise and suddenly pop leaving us bewildered.
Do you think this is how the American Indians felt at the end. This quiet desperation feeling weaving itself through our reality. Knowing we are being lied to, but not quite believing it.
Cherokee Nation Sung by Paul Revere and the Raiders
Fractals Explained in 5 Minutes
We Are All A Part Of The Whole
The circle is a work of art. It is a form of perfection. No beginning, no end...just forever. Once a great artist was asked for proof that his work was worth his asking price. The artist drew a perfect circle free-hand. There was no more proof needed. To draw perfection free-hand is always a feat.
Have you ever seen a fractal? It's like a circle. No beginning...no end...but a very, very beautiful design. And...and this is the important part...and if there is one change at one level of the pattern, the change becomes part of the whole. I feel that fractals show how we live, and affect, our realities.
We are that tiny change that changes the entire pattern. This IS our power. It may be a tiny change, but it will change the entire pattern...the entire pattern of reality...this IS our power. We, each and every one of us, own this power. What will you do with it?
No beginning, no end. We are the circle. We, collectively, are perfection. There is a balance in our world that you just need to accept to find. We are the sum of our existence and our future is untold. We are energy. We cannot be destroyed. Where has your energy been? Where will your energy go?
We need to focus our energy. Focus on the positives of life. Free ourselves from fear. Read the news, but do not be sucked into the fear tornado. Fear is the enemy. Love is our friend. If we can only accept others as friends...as a child would accept another...we live in love. We are not born with hate. Hate is a learned emotion.
Even children's stories acknowledge the circle of life. As children we may not understand, but we learn to accept the fact that there is more to the world than meets the eye (nose, ear, tongue, finger). The world is a magical place where you become bigger and learn...learn...learn. Life is simpler when you are young. Your mind is less cluttered. Not so many preconceptions, so many "you look like"s, so much past to deal with.
We need to remember the past to learn in the future. Life is a circle...or many circles in one. I can learn from my past. I can also learn from other people's pasts. But...why worry about tomorrow...what's all the fuss about yesterday? Time becomes a loop. Now is the ONLY reality.
Only now. You remember yesterday, but it is then, not now.. It was fun, it was yesterday...and you knew there was always a great tomorrow. But Now...Now...now is soooo enticing. It is the only time you will actually live in this reality. Yesterdays and tomorrows only live in our minds.
Reality is now. Right now. Not "in a second", not "just a minute", not "be there in an hour". Now, this moment, the second you read this. Oooops...now it's past...gone forever. Now it's just a memory of what was, able to be manipulated by us or others. What is truth? Isn't it just what the conquerers want to say?
Sometimes simplicity is best. I wonder, at times, where we...as a society...took the wrong turn. We had such fine hopes for mankind. Visions of peace and love. A world where everyone works to their potential. And happiness abounds. A world of plenty for everyone, laughter, light and love...
We did see that world, we did imagine it. What happened? Don't fall back to "crazy people". There have always been "crazy people" and there always will be. We just hear more about the few than ever before.
What's the Deal with Bad News
What's with that anyway? Why is bad news so profitable. I remember when bad news was spread mouth to mouth. News only showed up on the TV so many times a day, so when someone saw the news, the phone wires lit up. Bad news...that applied to you...was spread on a "need to know" basis. Neighbor called neighbor, mother called son, sister called brother. We learned of bad news as our parents wanted us to. My parents liked to be sparse on details, and it was years before I realized not all parents were.
Where did simplicity go? Did it go the same route as our values? Lost somewhere in space and time? Lost somewhere in those past years when our reality included honesty and sincerity? Or, as I think, is it here, just hidden under a cloak of misinformation?
The nightly news tells me that I am not safe. Someone is out to get me. Someone is not always defined, so my fear is anxiety...an unidentified dread. Anxiety is becoming a world-wide epidemic. I would wonder why. Maybe if we had never watched the news we could be at ease. I wonder why the networks WANT us to be anxious?
I do not feel like a victim. I will not accept being a victim. I feel as if I will find a way to handle what is thrown my way in life. My current greatest personal problem is that I have difficulty asking for help. I work with this...live and learn is my motto.
I do have tons to learn. There is so much I do not understand! How much should government intrude into our lives. How much can the government tell me how to live my life?
I know, I know...I am naive.
I guess you could say I was protected as a child. But that was how my parents DECIDED to raise me. Protected. And that was their decision to make, their decision on how they raised their child. I guess if I had been abused I wouldn't think this should be a right.
George Carlin-The American Dream
A Few of My Blessings
I am Blessed
My parents lived the "American Dream". I fully expected to live the "American Dream". Then I found out I had a fatal flaw. I could not disseminate. Isn't there a song, "if only I could lie". Oh, no, that was "If I only had a Brain" from the "Wizard of Oz". Well, I would probably find the Emerald City...if only I could lie.
My father always warned me that I do not think like other people. He would say, "Other people do not see the world like we do. It's more black and white."
He was a very wise man. I am an extremely lucky woman in the fact that I have wonderful parents. Another thing that I thought was a right of life growing up. It was not until many years later (and being a nurse) that I understood the depth of my blessing.
I am so very blessed in life it leaves me speechless at times. I look back and see how every puzzle piece fell together, and understand that I was right to trust God that it would. I very much believe that what we imagine will happen does happen.
I know, I know. Many would say I am naive and uncouth with an exaggerated sense of self. To think that I could change reality???!!! But it is true. My reality consists of the information my 5 senses feed me combined with how my brain interprets it. I am pretty sure my 5 senses send me correct signals. I just cannot put away my upbringing. We are here to help each other.
I don't believe this is the last I will be. Yes, it may be the last time on this plane, but there are many other places. Yes, we are corporeal, but we ARE energy. Energy cannot be created or destroyed.
Therefore, I am, I was and I always will be. But I think of it in this way...I am a part of it...I was a part of it...and I always will be a part of it. Yea, I know, there is my exaggerated sense of self again. But I am energy, therefore I cannot be destroyed.
I think there are people who would like to see life like us destroyed. Life that searches for truth. Life that feels a connection with other life. Life that cares what happens to another as much as it cares what happens to them. I think there are those who would like to see a zombie world of sheeple who ask no questions.
I think we need to be concerned...
(This song goes to the tune of "Cherokee Nation".)
They took the whole American nation
and made us into aberration.
They took away our ways of life;
Our jobs, our homes...our right, our might.
They took away "God In We Trust",
And substituted greed and lust.
The middle class in it's plight,
Was taken down with all it's might.
American People, American Pride.
Just want to live, don't want to die
They took the whole American nation
And made us into an aberration.
They thought to catch me in their chains,
But I can't go the way they came.
American People, American Pride.
Just want to live, don't want to die.
So maybe someday, when we learn,
American people will be concerned,
The Decline of the Middle Class
- Researchers have answered a big question about the decline of the middle class - The Washington Post
"Things just keep looking worse," said one economist.
- The American Middle Class Is Losing Ground | Pew Research Center
After more than four decades of serving as the nation's economic majority, the U.S. middle class is now matched in size by those in the economic tiers above and
- 15 Shocking Facts Show That the Middle Class is Being Wiped Out
Most Americans are still operating under the delusion that the United States will always be "the wealthiest nation" in the world and that the economy will always produce a large numbers of high paying jobs and that the U.S. will always have a very la
© 2010 Kari Poulsen