FIGHT!

I’m stressed out to the point I don’t even know what I’m doing anymore. I don’t know where to start to clean up this mess. Just when I thought life was getting better, I am met with some pretty fierce interference from every angle. What gives these other people the right to create chaos in another person’s life? I certainly don’t do it to them. I try really hard to keep my distance from people. Not because I don’t love and care about other beings, but because I have too many of my own problems to deal with. If I can work through my own problems and take care of my own responsibilities, I feel that everyone else should be carrying their own weight as well.

Wouldn’t the world be a much friendlier, more beautiful place if everyone handled their own affairs? What is so hard about this? Why can’t it be done?

I don’t want to hear I don’t know how. That is not a valid excuse. If you don’t know how to do something, find out how. Educate yourself. Read. If you have time to sit on Myspace, Twitter, and Facebook playing with apps and chit chatting, you have time to do your own research. I know what I have to do to solve my problems, because I have done my homework. It is your responsibility to do your own.

My life is still not perfect. I have my own problems to work on. I do not have time to fix yours, too, nor should I be asked to. You need to do you. You need to stand up and make your life what you want it to be, just as I should be allowed time to shape my world the way I see fit without you shoving your problems and responsibilities on me. This is not right and it is not fair. Get off your ass and do something about it for yourself. Love yourself. Respect yourself. Make your own life what you dream it to be. No one else has the same vision that you have for yourself anyway. You’re the best one for the job!

Besides that, how do you know that I don’t have more problems than you have in actuality? You assume that because I don’t whine about every little detail that everything is good in my world. Honey, you have no idea! I am the type that stands up for what she believes in. I fight tooth and nail to make a better life even though it has never truly been “good”. I’m not who everyone else thinks I should be. I am me. I live my life. If I need money and the only job I can find is in the fields picking tomatoes with the migrants, I do just that; because I have to. This is who I am so don’t get it twisted. Do your thing and be happy about it. Be thankful that you have the freedom to be whomever you choose, because our ancestors fought for these rights. Don’t lie down and play dead.

If we all were to work together on this, the world would change with us and our attitudes. We have chosen for our world to suck this bad. It is our own faults. Now all we can do is work to change it. I’m not afraid to put all my blood, sweat and tears into making a difference; but I’m standing alone here and I’m getting tired. Get off your ass!

I love you unconditionally no matter who you are. Now find that love for yourself inside yourself and pick yourself up. Put yourself on that pedestal where you belong. Fight!