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Addiction To Recovery: My personal experience

Updated on July 9, 2011

The Dark Side

I know addiction like the back of my hand. I was sexually abused as a child, and didn't really have a normal childhood. My mom and dad constantly argued and fist fought in front of me; one time my father threw my mom down the steps when she was pregnant with my younger brother. (thank god he is okay) Most of the things I remember as a child are not good things. I know this know;subconsciously I was using to cover the pain. I started drinking, taking pills, and smoking pot when I was 14. My addiction slowly progressed. By 16 I was doing crack, cocaine, oxycontin and heroin. I just wanted to be anything but "me". I was one of those people who said "I will NEVER stick a needle in my arm!" Well, I was wrong. Not only that; I made the worst decision possible; I let OTHER people shoot me up. Before I knew it, I was also shooting coke. I wish everyday I could go back to that first time I was asked if I wanted to shoot up, my answer would definitely be different.

I thank God everyday that I am still here. I believe he has given me a second chance at life. I overdosed one day, and my fiance saved my life. The last thing I remember is doing a hit of crack, and then my legs started shaking uncontrollably. I tried to calm myself down and figured I'm being paranoid, this will go away - but it didn't. I blacked out and don't remember a thing. My fiance was scared to death. I was having a seizure. Luckily, he knows what to do in those kinds of situations because his aunt used to have seizures. When I came to, I didn't know anything happened to me - I thought something happened to my fiance. He saved my life. I have no doubt in my mind: that if he wasn't there and didn't know what to do, I wouldn't be here today. God bless him. He is the man of my life.

The Other Side

I am 25 years old now, and I am clean and sober. I am at a much better, and happier place in my life. It is a world of a difference!  I have re-connected with my family, which is really important to me.  Now that I have a clear head, I can focus my energy on getting what I want out of life.  I am attending Delaware County Community College to get my Associates degree so I can become a licensed Paralegal.  Eventually, I hope to be an attorney.  If I can turn my life around so can you.  There is a whole other world outside the "drug box" you are keeping yourself in.  I finally have freedom & control over my life.  You can have it too. :)   

You CAN Recover From Addiction

If you or anyone you know has an addiction problem, DON"T WAIT! Get them the help they need now before it is too late! For many of my friends and family - it WAS too late.  The following links are useful sites available to help you and your family.


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    • thelyricwriter profile image

      Richard Ricky Hale 

      7 years ago from West Virginia

      Bless you now. It is not easy.

    • harrist profile image


      8 years ago from on the Net

      WOW !! the best article that I ever read in this hubpages worlds, and I am not kidding :-), its so inspiring, thanks for sharing,hopefully someday Google give you page rank 3 so the world knows about this important story, cause I think this hubs can be great deal of help for the peoples that having same or in position.

    • stevewong profile image


      8 years ago

      I cannot relate to the pain you went through, but thank you truly for being brave enough to share your story. I have seen those close to me affected by drugs, and it is truly a sad place to be...

    • elayne001 profile image


      8 years ago from Rocky Mountains

      I admire you for turning your life around. It must have been very hard for you. At one time, I was addicted to xanax (a prescription drug) and went through withdrawals. My husband and kids watched me go through it - not very pretty. Stay on track and enjoy life. Thanks for sharing so others can benefit.


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