I Bumped A Car Today.
I am writing this because I have no one to talk to. So, I decided to write some of the things that were bothering me. Perhaps, that’s one of the reasons why I was out of focus earlier. Aside from I bumped a car, I also— almost hit a guy who’s driving a motorcycle. I mean, this is really crazy, because “what if” I really did hit the guy? tskkk… By no chance would my conscience will let me live even just a second. I cannot kill! I can’t imagine myself snatching away one’s life in broad daylight, nor in any time of the day or night.
Anyhow, after that nerve wrecking incident, my mother and I went to the hospital where I saw various kinds of people. What caught my eyes were those who were on hospital beds and wheelchairs. At that moment I said to myself, “Hey you! You’re one heck of a lucky girl, you’re healthy as a cow!” And yeah, I am very lucky. Seeing the situation of those nearly immobile guys on hospital beds and wheelchairs, I can say that I am a million times luckier than them. My heart just aches for them. Nevertheless, I adore how they’d tried to be brave in fighting their battles. Yet, some are on the verge of retreating for I can see how their illnesses had desecrated their wholeness. It’s one hell of a battle. And for that, I realized today that the world is soooooo unfair!!! Life is just soooooo unfair… T.T like double capital “T” for the crying wossh wossh wossh, huhuhu, and hush hush hush.
Now, I also want to give emphasis on the veracity of life’s biases ’cause I found out yesterday that I failed in one of my subjects. And so yeah, what I am feeling now is hell; that is if hell is when you are suffering and you feel a great deal of pain, then I am in hell! Anyway, I am in pain because I did my best on that subject. I always do my best in what I do. But sometimes, life is unfair. Lifeeee iisss ssoooo unnnnfaaaaiiiirrr! And I don’t have to illustrate how unfair life is because proofs are ostensibly flying everywhere. You can see it in all corners of the world. Like, there’s always a boundary between nations. There’s this invisible line that divides one’s view from the other. There’s this one thick line that diversifies a race from another race. There’s this imbalanced scale among the elites and the poor. In sum, then again and again and again, life is not fair. I always say this because aside from change, it’s also one of the things that do not change; it’s stagnant; it’s permanent; it’s immutable. Life is unfair…and yeah, I bumped a car today.
© 2015 Cherrey Joy Ycong