Competing With a Fellow "X"
When i gave my first school exams as a child, i didn't know what exams were, i played with the question paper. Sixteen years passed, i learnt a lot of things in life and was now sitting for the Joint Entrance Exam for engineering in India. One question always pondered over my thoughts. there are 300000 applicants for this exam including me. in a way these people(myself included) are fighting... eliminating amongst ourselves to win the 10000 seats available. i thought, do we all know each other. Do i know a Mr. X in another part of the country who is my age and sitting for the same paper. Does he know me. Nope, we don't, still we are competing.
i have never seen X in my life. i don't know anything about him, his family, his financial status, his needs and his prospects. i am not aware of his skills. Still i compete with him. I try to eliminate him. Both of us are in a race... but there are so many contestants that i can't see him and he can't see me, but still we compete.
would he be a better engineer than i am? i don't know. is he a better human being than i am. no he's not! he is the same as me b'cause he is fighting too!! with me and that to without knowing me... :-x
Let's say both of us won and got ourselves a seat each amongst those 10k. then What happens.......
Me and my fellow X are in some priceless engineering hub of the country after fighting neck to neck with each other and many more As, Bs, Cs..... and i don't know how many are there?!
Guys... the fight is not over yet, it's just on hold for the next four years. Come the placements and jobs and we fight again. Ah! i missed him so much. Now we fight for bigger things. We join a global race. the race for success and wealth. The race for best professional careers. The race for being the best. The race for winning. Me and X keep fighting and one fine day we die and we still don't know that we fought each other.
COMPETITION...the moment i learnt what it truly was... i have hated it. Hated it to the fullest. I believe it undermines ones true potential 'cause of the pressure it puts them into. I gave up the fight with my friend X an year back when i moved above all this when i decided not to join the race of rats and pursue what i like not what people want me to like.
I put my thought forward. No one stood for me except a few, still i moved on with the thought because i feel its right for you to pursue WHAT YOU LIKE...
hey X! i have no grudges with you man... I don't wanna fight you. Hope you feel the same.