Finally Time For Me to Share About My O.C.D.
Note: This is a serious piece never before published on HubPages or anywhere else. Thanks, Kenneth
Imagine that right now, you are peeking through a magic curtain that allows you see people in the passage of time. You, like me, would go nuts looking at historical-events, famous births, and many milestones that has helped to build this arena of life that we compete in, and with something or someone each day of our lives.
Suddenly you see this guy, 22 years of age, clean cut, respectful to his parents and others in his life, but you instantly-notice that there is “something” unusual, not wrong, with him. You wait and watch and then nothing happens. You are almost ready to shut this magical curtain to look somewhere else when this clean-cut guy opens and closes the door to his living room at least 12 consecutive times. 12 mystifies you. You cannot speak to this guy since he is a hologram of the past, so you assume that 12 is his favorite number, the perfect number of the universe. Then this guy trods to his kitchen and when reaching for a glass to get a cool drink. He opens and shuts his cabinet door 12 more times. Just like a rehearsed ballet, each movement in a timed-action. No time wasted.
O.C.D. CAUSES STRANGE BEHAVIOR IN ALL PEOPLE
Now you cannot move for the 22-year old going through his day doing strange counting rituals on his car door, shoelaces, and even the arrangement of his fork, knife, plate and drink at lunch. Other people who do not understand this addiction of discipline just softly voice their sympathy (for him) to other coworkers. This neat-looking guy is strange in his ways, but good at his job. He is not like others, but he is never without a smile for anyone he meets.
This 22-year old guy is me. And since the age of 12, I have battled, endured, and stood against O.C.D. which in long-form means: “Obsessive Compulsive Discorder,” which some noted neurologists state that this is an affliction to the nervous system and by a person doing their own set of rituals, they are bolstering their self-esteem and keeping away the dark evil that they “know” somehow, will attack them or someone they love. This is the footnote version of O.C.D.
Other tasks that “I” had to have just right before eating or heading to bed:
- Everything in my room or house had to be straight—parallel with the edge of the table or shelf
- No newspapers, magazines tossed-around on the floor or couchs
- No dirty dishes left-over from supper
- All dirty dishes, silverware washed, dried and put away before bedtime
- All dirty clothes, mine or others’ clothes had to be put into the laundry hamper
THIS IS NOT EVEN A 'SCRATCH IN THE SURFACE"
This list is just a sample of what I had to get done every night of my life. Many other people in our United States have longer and more-tedious lists. With 3.3 million people, or 1 in 40 people having OCD, it is a fair estimate now than when this figure was published in 2012, there are more.
O.C.D. is curable, but one must start with “self,” first and face whatever fear, source of distrust or low self-esteem is causing this “beast” to rule your life. Similar to going “cold turkey,” on whiskey, one has to just bear down, grit their teeth and do lots of self-convincing and re-building new and easier patterns than counting, washing hands, keeping objects straight and also know that never-stopping these rituals could lead to one nearing a mental breakdown or growing into a hermit lifestyle, and one doctor told me that when O.D.C. is nearing its defeat, cases have shown that O.D.C. can somehow reproduce a back-up plan to keep the O.C.D. to engineering a person’s life.
I WON'T LIE TO YOU. IT TAKES DEDICATION AND DETERMINATION
When the sweating and facing the O.C.D. honestly is over, and you, like I, are living in a more-peaceful life even with these “new” building blocks, then a more-trusting, confident self-image and esteem will birth in you and you can lead a normal life just like the rest of mankind.
OCD explained . . .
- Obsessive–compulsive disorder (OCD) is an anxiety disorder characterized by intrusive thoughts that produce uneasiness, apprehension, fear or worry (obsessions), repetitive behaviors aimed at reducing the associated anxiety (compulsions), or a combination of such obsessions and compulsions. Symptoms of the disorder include excessive washing or cleaning, repeated checking, extreme hoarding, preoccupation with sexual, violent or religious thoughts, relationship-related obsessions, aversion to particular numbers and nervous rituals such as opening and closing a door a certain number of times before entering or leaving a room. These symptoms are time-consuming, might result in loss of relationships with others, and often cause severe emotional and financial distress. The acts of those who have OCD may appear paranoid and potentially psychotic. However, people with OCD generally recognize their obsessions and compulsions as irrational and may become further distressed by this realization. Despite the irrational behaviour, OCD is associated with high verbal IQ.
- A number of psychological and biological factors may be involved in causing obsessive–compulsive disorder. Standardized rating scales such as Yale–Brown Obsessive Compulsive Scale can be used to assess the severity of symptoms. Other disorders with similar symptoms include: obsessive–compulsive personality disorder (OCPD), an autism spectrum disorder, or disorders where perseveration (hyperfocus) is a feature in ADHD, PTSD, bodily disorders, or just a habit problem.
- Obsessive–compulsive disorder affects children and adolescents, as well as adults. Roughly one third to one half of adults with OCD report a childhood onset of the disorder, suggesting the continuum of anxiety disorders across the lifespan. The phrase obsessive–compulsive has become part of the English lexicon, and is often used in an informal or caricatured manner to describe someone who is excessively meticulous, perfectionistic, absorbed, or otherwise fixated.