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"Near Death Details" (Without the Manic Detachment from Reality)
How I Escaped
Anyone reading my last post might very well be wondering: "What ultimately happened?". Well, fortunately I started telling my brother what was going on inside my mind. Keep in mind that I could actually hear distorted and very distracting music being played the entire time I was trying to show you how I escaped. I'd taken caffeine to make my tired, barely-functioning mind keep working. Something was trying to erase what I'd just learned and I wasn't going to allow that to happen. Unfortunately, all these visions of Armageddon, being "left behind" and a desire to have friends in the meantime got to me. So I began spouting all this stuff that only carries one useful lesson for you: do not seek "dark power" to combat electronic harassment because labeling yourself as "Evil" gets an attempt on your life the very next day!
It's still FAKE or I'd most definitely be: dead, in a mental hospital or obeying something I really wouldn't want to. So, the night before the attack I'd asked for the power to avenge myself against these "V-People". I never invoked the Devil's name, I simply said: "In the name of all that is powerful, give me the strength to make these "invaders" go away"! Well, a very grim tone that I'd never heard before began to overshadow the wild ringing in my ears. Suddenly, I felt infused with the power to kick some serious ass. I was playing Online Halo and I just kept dominating. I eventually decided to go to sleep, which I did well.
Then I woke up to this "Hotel California" crap. Even though it seemed like "my last show", I wasn't going to give anyone the satisfaction of a single emotion. I decided to play Halo online to demonstrate my contempt for "the system". I began to notice "the fake heart-attack sequence": all-over-body-sweating, tightness in the chest and a "foreboding feeling". The phrase: "It's always the one's that you don't see coming that hurt the worst." came to mind. Well, like I said: I took 3 40Mg propranolol tablets to BLOCK ADRENALINE. Then I took some Kratom to make this experience as enjoyable as it possibly could be. Then I put my headphones on. Only ONE ear-piece worked so I had to focus on everything that came into that ear and ignore EVERYTHING ELSE.
Sure enough, my muscles began to spasm. It was like something could pull all of my muscles while giving me very ominous thoughts. I ignored them. The golden joy i derived from the music kept me more than calm, even though my body was experiencing an outward: tugging, spasming, contorting. At a time like this, you have absolutely NO energy to waste talking to anyone at all. So when people came in, I simply closed my eyes and let the relaxation obtained from my music and self-created "happy thoughts" flow. I remained happy, despite every single lie my body was feeling. The warmth and peace that kept me safe was completely internally-derived. It worked.
After awhile, I began to "silently seethe" with resentment. I could finally emotionally resent everything that had been done to me in the hope of "converting" me. It felt as though these hostile emotions were being broadcast all over the place and that everyone could hear/feel them. It felt quite liberating, so I continued "psychically"-spewing out every negative emotion I'd ever felt towards the "system". After 3 hours of not responding to my environment, I had learned that it didn't matter what "signals" you were receiving........it was how you INTERPRETED them that really counted. In my case, I kept hearing a "Ahhhh-Ahhhhh-Ah!-Ah!" which seemed very demonic and un-pleasant. To keep them from keeping me down, I interpreted them to mean "Indian Chanting". That way, I didn't have to regard them as being malevolent or directed at me for malevolent purposes. That way, I didn't resent my environment at all and could continue to do whatever I was doing.
Every once in a while, I'd get this "boodla-boodla-boodla" sound which actually made me laugh because it didn't make any sense at all. Someone outside kept revving their hedge-trimmer, but I interpreted this to mean that I was causing an uprising. This is when I got all these visions of Armageddon and how awful it was going to be for everybody. When I then stayed up that night before the "Near Death Experience", I asked the "dark side" for help in repelling these intruders and avenging mankind. I became a "war machine", dealing doom and death to the "invaders".
Then, after I survived the attempt on my sanity.........i was weak in that I felt so "Up", YET VERY DISORIENTED. You would think that being "Up" is all-protecting, but for me it was some kind of weakness. Actually, it may have been the only thing that kept me from being "converted". My mind was simply too weak from not sleeping for 4 days. Never let that happen. Admit yourself to a mental health facility if you haven't slept that long because it JUST ISN'T GOOD!
Anyhow, we have proof that all you must do is find a way to ignore ALL your "feelings", muscle-twitching and bad thoughts to survive a "possession attempt". Just stay SUPER-CALM throughout the episode and avoid "venting" like I did. It only complicates the process to where you feel that you are precisely that which you set out to get revenge yourself/family/friends against........and that just isn't any good, either!