Bestfriends = Backstabber
I learned pretty quickly that you have to be careful to whom you give your trust.
Bestfriends is such a sweet and fragile 11-letter word. But once scratched, it turns into an ugly 11-letter word Backstabber. Friendship is a beautiful way of growing memories into our life and keeping treasures in a form of friends.
But sometimes, along the way, we will encounter jealousy and treachery smashing the walls of good friendship into evil intentions.
Experience taught me not to give your full trust no matter how you love or how deep your friendship is.
Nobody can keep a secret. Secrets are made to be found out. Remember that our best best friends can be our worst enemy since they all knew the inside and outside of our closet.
But I’m not talking about spilling secrets here. It’s much more than that. Have you ever felt the worst feeling in your life when you talked to a person whom you thought to be your so-called trusted friend and that person pretends that nothing is happening?
When you already knew that she’s the one stabbing you with a knife every time you turned back? When you knew that she’s the one spilling all the skeletons you’re hiding in your closet even when there are no skeletons there?
When you knew she’s the one stalking you and keeping all your moves into a journal?
Scary huh? And she’s there with you, talking, laughing at your jokes as if there’s nothing wrong – acting innocently and making you feel that she can be trusted.
Looking into the remnants of your past, you feel sorry for the friendship you have built with and not knowing one tweak of jealousy will make that person turn against you.
Just by looking at her face makes you want to scream and ask why.
Sometimes you will try to understand the reason why but when you looked at the mirror, you will see the person ruined and bruised by friends.
You will see a person everybody laughed at and talked about just because you have given your full trust to a wrong person – a person who makes fun of using other people so that she could be on the spotlight.
There are a lot of people around us that pretend to be good and nice towards you but in the end you’ll know that she’s the one who brings misery and sorrows into your life.
You later realized that she’s not the person you thought she was.
Trust, when broken is like a crumpled piece of paper. It can be stretched out once again but you will always see the marks, always there to remind us that something has happened and will never be forgotten.
Well, that’s only my point of view, which experience shared with me.
Until now when I looked back at the past and remember every bit of betrayal, I feel sorry for that person, trying to ruin someone’s life just to be noticed. No one found out the truth, and I will always remain a ‘bad person’ to people who knew.
I did not explain myself, for I knew the people who really knows and loves me wouldn’t care. And that’s all matters, for now.
I don’t know about yours or anybody else. Maybe not all people will turn into a backstabbing monster once jealousy enters the pictures. It’s not that I’m heartless kind of person, actually, if I could give a friend much more, I would but everything had changed since trust for friends have been broken. I just learned to use my heart less.
And for me, I’ve learned the puzzle of friendship in a very hard and painful way.
"No matter how much goodness you've done to them, still they will hurt you."
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