DEALING WITH A TORN HEART
Why am I always running so scared?
so scared and sheltered up to live my life free.
And yet, I am so scared to fall in love and even much more afraid of someone breaking my heart, again,again and again
Torn from my chest; beating its last beats in the palm of my lovers hands. My heart torn out; along with all my love, trust ,smiles and meanings of a long time friendship.
My blood is spilling everywhere.
Please someone heal me before I die!
To die from love, is what some may consider impossible!
Only those who have never truly loved may say impossible.
But no! .
I have loved and loved again.
With each love, a torn heart has followed.
All equally bringing me a great deal of pain and suffering.
Each one killing me slowly.
You would think after having my heart taken from me several times,
I would just give up; but I just want to be healed and not be afraid.
What is life when afraid of love?
I still believe I can find someone who would never hurt me,
someone who would never want to be my source of pain and would do everything in there power to avoid it,
someone who wouldn't kill me.
Where is my fantasy man?
The one who will mend my heart and make all my scars disappear?
I will keep searching until I die.
Searching for happiness.
Heather Irvin 2010 ©