Getting Through The Rough Stuff In Life!
What is competition? Competition is when two things try to win the same object. Why do people compete? Because they have something to say or prove. Is there a bad way to compete? Yes, that is called cheating. The reason for this hub is something in my life that is going on. For a long time I have been feeling as though a person or persons have been trying to compete with me for an unobtainable object. Also, because their choice to compete with me has been causing some major problems in my life. Their way of competing is by doing things behind my back or cheating to be better then me. Very hurtful!
There are some people in my past that over time are no longer a part of my life. Even though they are not there, they seem as though they are. I think thoughts of them trying to bother me or take something that is not theirs, because they no longer like me. All of this is due to old childhood things that are explainable, but because they choose not to accept the truth and dwell on the past I am having troubles in my life. I have tried to even the plane, but that just isn't happening. The need to compete. This is why I feel they do what they do...to prove something to themselves. Some people in life don't care enough about others to truly do the right thing.
What I am learning is that even though I can't not be sure what the cause of the troubles in my life are that I have to deal with things appropriately and tell people who can help. I have been having troubles with these people for over 15 years now and been through many stages of emotions or ways to deal with it and many of them mistakes. I used to get very angry and want to hurt someone or something, but through a major bad decision and some helpful learning tools to control my anger I think I can start moving past these children and become an adult. I am almost 31 and looking for my husband and children and hopefully a great career...and no more run ins with the law. Hopefully even if I can't get through to these people, someone or something will teach them when, why , and how to compete. Win Win Win!