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I Am (And Love To Be) Everything You Hate: I Am a Housewife

Updated on June 30, 2016

I too was raised in the spirit that you have to grow up and work, to have your own money and the sense of liberty that comes with it, but even so, I've ended up being a housewife at some point and in time I've got to the point where I love it.

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Growing Up

I have seen my parents coming from work every day. And even if my mother was tired after a long day of working in constructions at the same rate as men did it - otherwise, in case of layoffs she would have been the first to go because she was a woman and they needed men force - she would sometimes stop by the market, carry the grocery home, where she would start preparing dinner, cleaning the house, washing the laundry (by hand, until we could afford a washing machine), ironing, and so on.

She didn't do all of these daily, but after a hard day of work it is enough just to do one of these things when you get home.

When she was coming home from work, I was outside, playing with other children, and I would run to her so happy to see her, and also to see if she bought me something sweet. I thought to myself: this is how I want to be when I grow up. I want to come home from work and have my children run happy to me, I want to take care of everyone even if all I feel like doing is lie down on the couch and rest.

I have tried it, for a while, and I was so incredibly unhappy. I was sure that all women were tired and unhappy, but they all keep on doing it because they have to. Then, I met women who weren't doing this, who were taking breaks when they were tired, who weren't trying to do it all in one day, and who were stay-at-home mothers ... and their world didn't crumble just because they were different.

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Feeling Guilty

When I gave up the job I had because I got tired of working from 8AM to 10PM without any recognition and for a really low salary, I was sure I would find something better in no time. It didn't happen. Time was passing, I was still at home and my head felt like it was about to explode.

I was depressed all the time, I was trying to find any job possibly, no matter how bad it was and how low the salary was. I just needed to work ... because I had that voice inside my head telling me all the time that this is what “normal” means: to have a job, to be a good wife, to be a good mother ... to do all that women fought for so many years.

You can imagine my disappointment and guilt when I wasn't doing all that. I wasn't employed, I wasn't a wife, I didn't have children, all I had was a boyfriend and a house to take care of. He never reproached me not having a job, but I was feeling sick to my stomach every day thinking at what ideas might go through his head: she's not good enough to find a job, she gave up the job she had with nothing else as a backup plan, will she ever be more than she is, will she ever succeed? ... and many other ideas that were actually going through my mind, but I was imagining them going through his as well.

I am still struggling sometimes with these thoughts, and still fall in depression thinking that this is it, this is all I'm ever going to be. I am working online, but it is not the same as having a steady (even if a bad one) salary.

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Acceptance

Life forces you to do a lot of things that you didn't think you will do, to adapt as you go, to accept what throws your way. And I have to say that at some point this is exactly what I did. I stopped fighting and accepted that I am a housewife and that maybe this is all I'm going to be. Then, I've started thinking at what all this implies and I've realized that I like being a housewife. I like cooking a hot meal almost daily, I love keeping a clean house, and I love taking care of my husband to be, being really good at it.

I've also learned that I can take breaks and the sky won't come falling down; that I can let things get messy sometimes just to clean them after; I've learned how to relax without having that guilt feeling making me feel like I am about to throw up.

Yes ... I am one of those who take women back from the liberty they've achieved, and I don't think I should apologize for it. Not all women are born to wish to be leaders, bosses and big company runners. Not all of us think that your life is meaningless if you don't work all day long and come home so tired that you can barely drag your feet. Some of us actually found out that they love to be a stay-at-home wife, or mother, and that they are pretty good at it.

So, before any working woman judges the one who decides (by themselves or forced by events) to be a homemaker, just think that they never judge you for deciding to work all day as hard as men do it, or sometimes even harder.

Have you been through a similar situation, feeling guilty?

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Tell me in a comment what have you ever feel guilty for. From the fear of not being a good wife, not being good at your job, fear of being a stay-at-home mother and so on ... what's the guilty feeling that is (or was) eating you up alive?

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      Paula 22 months ago

      You are very right dashingscorpio. It should be about the freedom of choice, so if someone chooses to be a stay at home wife shouldn't this count as the right to live as you wish?

      Thank you for your opinion, I am on the same pace.

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      dashingscorpio 23 months ago

      Sad to say but it's usually other (women) who look down on women who are housewives. Some of them feel all women should be obligated to crack glass ceilings wherever they may be and shout to the world:

      "I don't NEED a man!"

      Nothing turns their stomach more than seeing women represented in the 1950s era or before. They feel every woman should be "pro-choice". From their point of view there is a {gender war} and women should be "united".

      However hard fought for rights and equality really are about having "the choice". It's not about feeling "obligated" or ashamed to live a certain way. Essentially that would be trading one set of chains for another.

      Individuality is our birthright as human beings and should be celebrated.

      True freedom and independence recognizes: Life is a (personal) journey!

      One man's opinion!:)

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      Paula 23 months ago

      I am happy to hear that you could do that. I wish you all the best in everything that you decide to do :)

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      Denise W Anderson 23 months ago from Bismarck, North Dakota

      It got to the point that I was the only one at home. My children were involved with their school activities and my husband worked long hours. It was more a matter of need than anything. I needed to have something productive to do, and sitting at home alone only fed my depression and anxiety. I went back to school and obtained my degree, then went into the workforce directly from there.

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      Paula 23 months ago

      I understand you completely Denise. I am a perfectionist also, unfortunately for me because it is making me feel depressed and not good enough almost all the time.

      Was it hard for you to go back to having a strict work schedule after being away for so long? Wasn't difficult to not be able to do the things you used to, when you used to? This is what scares me when I think of going back to being employed.

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      Denise W Anderson 23 months ago from Bismarck, North Dakota

      I was a stay-at-home mom/homemaker until my children were all in school. At the time, I felt it was the right thing to do, but I often compared myself to others who either had more than we did financially, or were able to do things that I could not due to their careers. I think the thing that was the most difficult was that I never felt "good enough." I eventually ended up in mental health treatment and realized that my own perfectionism and critical thinking were what got me into trouble. Now that the majority of my children are on their own, I am working full time, and I find that it has its own set of issues. My perfectionist personality has followed me, and I still feel frequently inadequate, even though others tell me I have many talents and abilities.

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