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If I Never Saw You Again

Updated on September 17, 2012

Every smile, half a smile. Every laugh, half a laugh. Every joy cut in half. Every tear, ten times a tear. Every emotion stretching beyond the confines of its own limitation. You my love, the distortion of everything. Sometimes I feel that my love is so consumed by itself that its purity is completely obscured. No one else sees it as it is. It is unrecognizable to others as the dearest treasure that it is. I have never known this sanctity with another.


I held you today. I loved you today with my body. We touched the most secret place of each other, that place which no one else ever sees. A place seen by a spirit's eye, transcending what is human. You make me more me. I cannot be me without you. I don't want to. I was born to breathe while loving you.


To think of you not being well paralyzes me. It forces me into a fixed position, and nothing can move me. I have what I have of you. It is not enough my love, but I will take it. And I will love you all that I can. You don't comprehend how much that is. I will protect you until I can't move. I will be strong for you until I am not breathing. No one knows. No one knows how deep this love of mine for you is. Not even you.


Loving someone brings about the realization of stark contrasts. Deep love bathes your soul in sunshine. Its power is immortality. Love like this spawns the belief that nothing can destroy it. Nothing can take it because it is protected by the strength of the love itself. But that's not true. We are human. Something can touch us, something can creep in and change us, alter a future we have mapped out in our hearts, forever disfigure the terrain of the road we have no choice but to walk.


The unimaginable. What is it? What would take you from me, and remove the most precious love I have ever known from my grasp? I don't want to take one single, solitary, sweet second for granted. A split second in time, one moment you are holding me, wrapping your love around me. Yet in the same space of another moment, you may be ripped away from me forever. Have I told you, shown you enough my darling? Have I given my best to you? I love you more than I knew love could ever be. Nothing, nothing, nothing is more precious to me. I love you. I want to do my best by you. No regrets, ever. Never, ever.

© 2012 Bella Nina

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    • Bella Nina profile imageAUTHOR

      Bella Nina 

      6 years ago from USA

      Thank you epigramman!! I am thankful to you for sharing your impression of my writing. Feedback is so important, and I take encouragment from yours. Thank you very much.

      Thank you for reading my hub Vinaya, and for your comment as well. I appreciate your impressions and perspective on my writings!

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      epigramman 

      6 years ago

      ....I really like how you put your words and thoughts together into a poetic paragraph, if you will, and this writing is as pure and soulful as they come - love has that affect on us dosen't it - and your writing has that affect on 'us'

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      Vinaya Ghimire 

      6 years ago from Nepal

      The first paragraph is so wonderful. "Every smile, half a smile. Every laugh, half a laugh." Interesting expressions.

    • Bella Nina profile imageAUTHOR

      Bella Nina 

      6 years ago from USA

      Thank you Polly. I always appreciate your comments, and I thank you for reading what comes from my heart.

    • Pollyannalana profile image

      Pollyannalana 

      6 years ago from US

      Great write. Voted up.

      Polly

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