I'm Feeling 22!
"What is it that you are absolutely sure you will never forget about being this age, and why have adults forgotten it?" -Amanda Mae Meyncke
I am twenty-two years old and I can honestly say that my life is okay for the most part. I wish it would get a little better because I hate living in the unknown. I don't like not knowing what's going to happen to me.
Sometimes I feel lost and other days, I feel extremely confident in my abilities. I know what I want to do for the rest of my life, but it has been hard starting it because of my constant need to know how everything is going to work out.
I know I want to be a writer and I have been successful in the writing field for awhile now, but I just want to know that I can make an honest living as a writer.
I don't think this is actually answering the question, but I'm getting there.
Because I'm young and I have my whole life ahead of me, I just get so overwhelmed thinking I am doing too much or I'm not doing enough. I'm never sure which one it is.
What I do love about being twenty-two is my hunger for life and desperation to live life unashamed and in rebellion.
Why Am I Hungry?
At this point in my life, I'm excited about all the things I have and haven't done.
I'm actually more concerned about what I haven't done and that scares me. I haven't gotten my own place or car. I don't like feeling like I can't do things on my own. It's my independent streak.
Since I was a child, I have always had this need to do things my way. This is why I am hungry.
I want something to call my own. I want to feel like I actually own something and I'm not borrowing what belongs to someone else.
I just need to know that I can make it on my own and I know I can. I was away at college for four years before I came home in December 2014.
I know there is a world waiting for me and it's calling out to me. I hear it and it sounds like a resounding drum. I must answer that call or I may never get it again.
Something is stirring in my heart and I don't know what it is, but for now, let's move on.
What is Hunger?
According to Wikipedia, hunger is "a condition in which a person, for a sustained period, unable to eat sufficient food to meet basic nutritional needs".
Let's discuss this basic need.
Earlier, I mentioned that I'm hungry for life. I want to live out my dreams and be all I can be. Being alive and living out my dreams are basic needs.
Is it safe to say my hunger is good?
Yes. I have a hunger to see every dream I have come true and they will.
Why Have Adults Lost Their Hunger?
I think as people grow older, they become more set in their ways. This means they are unresponsive to change.
Nobody wants to feel as though they are losing control of their selves or a situation. This is what changes causes people to do: lose control.
Losing control and letting go are basic necessities of life. These things help propel us into unknown territories and so does change. If you aren't practicing these things, then you better start now.
The truth is life is always changing, no matter what. If you are someone who doesn't welcome change in your life, then you are going to be extremely stressed.
Change is the only constant in life. You might as well get used to it because it isn't leaving.