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I've Found Somebody New

Updated on December 13, 2009

 I kissed you goodbye this morning like I always do, you didn't feel the difference, the distance between me and you. You hurried out the door, eager to be gone. But this time I didn't so empty or so all alone.

My clothes were secretly packed, all ready to go, but I didn't let you see it, I didn't let it show. It doesn't hurt me anymore, I no longer feel the pain. You've been gone so long, you can't hurt me again.

I walked you to the door, and then I watched you drive away. This time I didn't say anything, there's nothing left to say. You will go on with your life the way you always did. No pain, no regrets, no last words left to be said.

As you come home to an empty house, I wonder what you'll think. Did my love mean anything to you or was it just another thing? Will you even miss me, did you ever care? So often you took me for granted like I wasn't even there.

But I've found someone to take your place. Who makes my life feel brand new, I don't feel abandoned and lost like I did with you. You never knew how much I did , or all the pain that I went through.

He makes me smile and forget the pain, that ripped me through and through. I don't have to be someone I'm not, or do things I don't want to do. Maybe it won't last, time will only tell, but at least for now I'm in heaven, not suffering in this hell.

You never even saw the signs that I was going my own way, you never made me feel what I needed to make me want to stay. When I tried to pull you closer you always pulled away.

I take my bags and walk out the door, leaving everything behind, the pain ,the hurt, the memories, the love that was never mine. I'm doing it this way, so you can't change my mind. Face to face would never work, your words were never kind.

A quick note left on the table, my last and final goodbye, no more tears or broken heart. This was the last time you had, to tear my world apart. I didn't take the pictures, or any trinkets that you gave. Now I'm running for my life, it's all that's left to save.

He meets me with a smile and tells me I look great. For some reason You never did that and now it's just to late.

I've found someone to take your place, maybe now I'll find happiness, but at least if it doesn't work, I won't have to go through this. So hold my letter in your hands and feel the love that died, dou miss me now, Do you wish I was at your side?

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    • christalluna1124 profile imageAUTHOR

      christalluna1124 

      11 years ago from Dallas Texas

      Thanks for the comments everyone. Saddly for me it is just a poem I wrote to relive the loneliness and the depression that hits me really hard this time of year.

      Warmest Regards,

      Christal

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      Poppa Blues 

      11 years ago

      Been there done that! It's a shame that we waste so much of our lives in relationships trying to make them work. I'm Happy you found someone that makes you feel good about yourself, we all deserve that! Thanks for commenting on my hubs, I appreciate it!

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      Sue1226 

      11 years ago from Dallas, Texas

      Love your article and hope you luck with the new love and hope you have found the love I have found. Best wishes for a better tomorrow.

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      itakins 

      11 years ago from Irl

      Such a deep story in so few words -great to know you have happiness ,which you deserve ,now.

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      Tammy Lochmann 

      11 years ago

      Very nice...I really enjoy reading your articles.

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